Your Grace

Darn. Exams, exams, exams.

I was feeling so tired today when I was crawling home from the bus stop. Then it hit me that I am half way done with my exams :) That's fast. To date I have triumphed over 4 (English, Chinese, Additional Math, Biology) and a half (Social Studies) subjects. Though I must admit I don't really feel like a conqueror. More like a survivor who just pulled through. Now the truth behind the greeting I always hear on the bus first thing in the morning is sinking in. "Time flies so fast, huh? It's (Wednesday) already. Argh, I can't believe it." Neither can I.

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
would care to know my name, care to feel my hurt?
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star,
would choose to light the way for my ever-wandering heart?

Not because of who I am, but because of what You've done.
Not because of what I've done, but because of who You are.

I am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow, a wave tossed in the ocean, a vapour in the wind.
Still You hear me when I'm calling, Lord You catch me when I'm falling,
And You told me who I am.
I am Yours.

Not because of who I am, but because of what You've done.
Not because of what I've done, but because of who You are.

I've been sending up fervant prayers before every paper. I don't know how that will help to improve my marks, but I do know Someone is listening. His grace is sufficient for me, and I am content with that. If I don't do well, I know it isn't exactly because I didn't study or put my heart into it (with, of course, the ever present exception of Math). But SOMEHOW I am just NOT doing well this year.

But who am I to question? I'm convinced I've done my best (or close to it).