The meaning of what happiness is
I've got my new feeling today. I realized he's just that nice to everybody, and so I'm not writhing with confusion anymore.
Is what I want to think anyway. I refuse to do anything more.
I went back today to see the kids at about 4.20. They were at the playground. I met Xiu Ling today ^.^ It's been so long since I last saw her. She's soo cute!
And if there's one thing I've learnt, it's how to handle G.
"Teacher Jane, I know why you came back today. You came to see Teacher Weiren."
"No, I came back because I missed you so much, G." I'm so brilliant. The little vixen shut her mouth after that. There was this moment of each of us smiling sweetly at each other; I wanted to strangle her, she wanted to call me a liar. But I wasn't lying. Not completely anyway.
And my new feeling is also because I came closer to coming to terms with myself today. I can't draw people close to me or make them open up through friendly talk or looks (only I HAVE been uncannily successful with Sami, but I don't think it's because I'm good); I think I confuse some people because I fluctuate between warm and cold at times.
In short. I am not small, slim, pretty, outgoing, charming, loving or the like. Not on the outside at least.
But that's ok. I have my own way of telling people I love them. And I know kindred spirits, or "the race of Joseph" as Miss Cornelia says, can understand me.
If he can't understand me, then that's alright.
Daylight
See the dew on the sunflower
And a rose that is fading, roses wither away
Like the sunflower I long to turn my face to the dawn
I am waiting for the day
I guess it's also because of the chat I had with Sami last night. I think I've settled into a contented, assured friendship with him. It's fresh and encouraging, and puts a smile on my lips.
Thank you Sami, for letting me love you. No matter how silly I was over you. I wish I could tell you, how much I really thank you.
Is what I want to think anyway. I refuse to do anything more.
I went back today to see the kids at about 4.20. They were at the playground. I met Xiu Ling today ^.^ It's been so long since I last saw her. She's soo cute!
And if there's one thing I've learnt, it's how to handle G.
"Teacher Jane, I know why you came back today. You came to see Teacher Weiren."
"No, I came back because I missed you so much, G." I'm so brilliant. The little vixen shut her mouth after that. There was this moment of each of us smiling sweetly at each other; I wanted to strangle her, she wanted to call me a liar. But I wasn't lying. Not completely anyway.
And my new feeling is also because I came closer to coming to terms with myself today. I can't draw people close to me or make them open up through friendly talk or looks (only I HAVE been uncannily successful with Sami, but I don't think it's because I'm good); I think I confuse some people because I fluctuate between warm and cold at times.
In short. I am not small, slim, pretty, outgoing, charming, loving or the like. Not on the outside at least.
But that's ok. I have my own way of telling people I love them. And I know kindred spirits, or "the race of Joseph" as Miss Cornelia says, can understand me.
If he can't understand me, then that's alright.
Daylight
See the dew on the sunflower
And a rose that is fading, roses wither away
Like the sunflower I long to turn my face to the dawn
I am waiting for the day
I guess it's also because of the chat I had with Sami last night. I think I've settled into a contented, assured friendship with him. It's fresh and encouraging, and puts a smile on my lips.
Thank you Sami, for letting me love you. No matter how silly I was over you. I wish I could tell you, how much I really thank you.
posted by munchkin @ 7:02 PM
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