Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone my hope is found

He is my light my strength my song

This Cornerstone this solid Ground

Firm through the fiercest drought and storm

What heights of love what depths of peace

When fears are stilled when strivings cease

My Comforter my all in all

Here in the love of Christ I stand.

In Christ alone who took on flesh

Fullness of God on helpless babe

This gift of love and righteousness

Scorned by the ones He came to save

Till on that cross that Jesus died

The wrath of God was satisfied

For every sin on Him was laid

Here in the death of Christ I live.

Sigh. Sometimes I reflect and I realise what a terrible person I am. For every sin on Him was laid; here in the death of Christ I live. Forgive me Father, I know You must be sad to see Your child behave in such a manner. I am such a contradiction.

No guilt in life no fear in death

This is the power of Christ in me.

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Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.

Hmm. O level Chinese is tomorrow. I seriously don't think I can get an A1 for it. I already screwed up my oral, and I know my composition is going to drag me down into the depths of failure. Great. Its one of those exams when I just feel so hopeless.

Help. Help. Help.

I don't know whose brilliant idea it was to try to stuff three years' worth of Chinese characters into our heads in one week, but I bet my money's worth that the person(s) have never tried it themselves. I mean, sure, we're higher Chinese students, but that doesn't make us geniuses. If you gave our syllabus to a normal Chinese student, I think they can pretty much handle it too. Just make the speed a little slower. And besides, we're not even tested on the new words that come out in our text books anymore. The new Higher Chinese syllabus doesn't require us to learn all that stuff. I seriously don't know where this is taking us; where this new emphasis on reading and not writing or building up vocab is going to take us. From what I think, its not going to be a very bright or happy picture. But perhaps I'm just not as far sighted as those at the top. I wonder what they think they're doing. I wish they'd take time to explain to us what they're thinking, and at the same time let us tell them what we're thinking. Maybe they've not thought of it...? I know its naive of me to think so, but I really can't find another excuse.

Perhaps they're smart and we're not. That's another possible reason.

Oh well.

Back to cramming. If I ever get to work in MOE I'll finally be able to answer a lot of questions that have been haunting me for a long time.

Ah, but why worry about what they're doing? It isn't that important after all, is it?

Sigh.

As high as the heavens are above the earth

So high are Your ways to mine

Ways so perfect they never fail me

I know You are good all the time.