That weird day
Tomorrow is THAT day of the year.
That weird day.
Now that I remember, my first (and only, because I realized how pointless it is) crush was also about 17 back then.
Man, I'd be weirded out if some Sec 1/2 person fell in love with me. Yucks. (But thankfully I never told him.) Perhaps the weird feeling is also because I'm a girl.
Oh well.
When I look back on who I was, I find my old self so stupid.
Sigh. I still remember last year Mom gave me two stuffed-toys: a Tigger and a Winnie the Pooh. This year, it's an Indesit oven. What a change huh? I still remember what Mom told the sales staff at mayer. "She bakes, I eat." An inconspicuous hint, no? But I guess half the fun is in having someone eat what you make. Otherwise what's the point?
Everybody is in school studying. I feel so weird not being in school. And I guess a little afraid too, that I'll not be able to catch up. Sigh.
I had the most frightening nightmare last night. I dreamed that I got 15 points in my O Level exams. FIFTEEN points. I also dreamt that I was crying and crying, except that there were no tears. I also dreamt that Shooee was there comforting me. But I should've known it wasn't real; I actually got 12 and 10 for two subjects. But boy was it frightening. I'M SO FREAKED OUT NOW!!!!!
Sigh. Working is quite interesting and fun in it's own way actually. But I bet if I had to do it for the rest of my life I'd be screaming from boredom. So now I see there is truth in the saying "live each day as if it's your last", because after all only God knows when exactly we will die. No one else can tell; no one at all. Even if they claim they can, you don't want to know what kind of spirits they're fraternizing with.
Sigh. I guess if God knows when I'll die, He should also know how I'll do for my O Levels. So if the future is all up to Him, then there's nothing left for me to do but live each day the way He wants me to :) That's a comforting thought. If God is with us, who can stand against us?
Tomorrow is my seventeenth birthday. I have a lot of wishes, some of which my rational thinking tells me is dumb but my heart wants so dearly to have. Oh well. I hope I grow out of it soon.
Dio Eraclea's (Last Exile) version of happy birthday in Chinese is running in my head now. Zhu ni sheng ri kuai le, gu xiang wo men hui lai le, sheng ri kuai le sheng ri kuai le.... Lol. That funny, egocentric guy. I bet he didn't know how much foreshadowing his simple song held. Strangely enough, he was also turning seventeen on that day.
When you're sixteen going on seventeen...
Haha. I wish right now that I can skip time all the way to when I'm a freshman in university.
That weird day.
Now that I remember, my first (and only, because I realized how pointless it is) crush was also about 17 back then.
Man, I'd be weirded out if some Sec 1/2 person fell in love with me. Yucks. (But thankfully I never told him.) Perhaps the weird feeling is also because I'm a girl.
Oh well.
When I look back on who I was, I find my old self so stupid.
Sigh. I still remember last year Mom gave me two stuffed-toys: a Tigger and a Winnie the Pooh. This year, it's an Indesit oven. What a change huh? I still remember what Mom told the sales staff at mayer. "She bakes, I eat." An inconspicuous hint, no? But I guess half the fun is in having someone eat what you make. Otherwise what's the point?
Everybody is in school studying. I feel so weird not being in school. And I guess a little afraid too, that I'll not be able to catch up. Sigh.
I had the most frightening nightmare last night. I dreamed that I got 15 points in my O Level exams. FIFTEEN points. I also dreamt that I was crying and crying, except that there were no tears. I also dreamt that Shooee was there comforting me. But I should've known it wasn't real; I actually got 12 and 10 for two subjects. But boy was it frightening. I'M SO FREAKED OUT NOW!!!!!
Sigh. Working is quite interesting and fun in it's own way actually. But I bet if I had to do it for the rest of my life I'd be screaming from boredom. So now I see there is truth in the saying "live each day as if it's your last", because after all only God knows when exactly we will die. No one else can tell; no one at all. Even if they claim they can, you don't want to know what kind of spirits they're fraternizing with.
Sigh. I guess if God knows when I'll die, He should also know how I'll do for my O Levels. So if the future is all up to Him, then there's nothing left for me to do but live each day the way He wants me to :) That's a comforting thought. If God is with us, who can stand against us?
Tomorrow is my seventeenth birthday. I have a lot of wishes, some of which my rational thinking tells me is dumb but my heart wants so dearly to have. Oh well. I hope I grow out of it soon.
Dio Eraclea's (Last Exile) version of happy birthday in Chinese is running in my head now. Zhu ni sheng ri kuai le, gu xiang wo men hui lai le, sheng ri kuai le sheng ri kuai le.... Lol. That funny, egocentric guy. I bet he didn't know how much foreshadowing his simple song held. Strangely enough, he was also turning seventeen on that day.
When you're sixteen going on seventeen...
Haha. I wish right now that I can skip time all the way to when I'm a freshman in university.
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