Okinasai, atashi

'Pause you who read this, and think for a moment of the long chain of iron or gold, of thorns or flowers, that would never have bound you, but for the formation of the first link on one memorable day.'

Sami Lahtinen, I don't want to love you anymore.

I need to separate myself from you before I start hating you.

I wish, almost, I had never agreed to be your friend on that day more than a year before. I'm going to burn up that chain of flowers and thorns. I promise myself. I can't do what Pip did for Estella. Look where it got him.

I'll send you a Christmas letter to thank you.

Then I'll not owe you anything more.

I hope I can keep to my resolution.