Orchestra practice is starting this Wednesday. But after today, I just don't feel like doing music anymore. 好像我对音乐没有什么缘分。Really wish I could get out of the July 16th event. Seems like I keep meeting people who just think they're doing me a great favour by telling me how I fall short. I know, I'll keep meeting people like that in whatever I do, wherever I go, but it just seems to cut deeper when it comes to music.

What the heck man. I'm sick and tired of struggling with these people. Makes me think the only real way to enjoy music is the sit back and listen to the masters play it. Not that I mind, it just makes me boil when little undergrads from Yong Siew Toh think their prowess in their viola gives them legitimacy to tell others off when they're not up to the same standard.

I'm a political science student, you idiot. I have a freaking right not to be perfect in my sightreading, without any practice. Just freak off. He's one reason why I don't want to go back to the orchestra anymore. Don't want to see that stupid arrogant face. "I'm going to be really harsh and critical now". Here's MY version of harsh criticism, right back in your stuffed up, pale face.

And for that guy who came and mumbled on about how I'm not supposed to adjust the volume on the synthesizer, I understand you're trying to teach me, but sorry, nothing went in. I just didn't get you Honestly. I'm just so freaking going to do it like I always do. Maybe if you get lucky, I'll actually understand someday.

Deal with it.

*Hah, feel SO much better after being pissed off the whole day*