Relearning old lessons

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding- Proverbs 3:5

I just relearnt this tonight.

I was struggling today whether to go for VCF membership class, cause I had worship pract tmr night and an essay due on friday....

I decided not to go.

But somehow I felt that I should really go. No particular reason. But even though I felt like I should go, I couldn't get rid of a sense of guilt, like, maybe I wasn't allocating my time well?

This afternoon at 1pm I thought, ok God, if I can find a replacement for tmr's worship pract then I'll go for membership class. But I didn't find one.

Then at 5pm today, sitting in Japanese language class, I thought, whatever, I'm too tired to study well tonight anyway. And michelle was encouraging me to go too.

SO I went. And had a pretty good time actually.

And after that I spent some time with Shana on the bus, going home the long way. But it was good to spend time with her. I've missed spending time with her.

As I walked home today I realized that for some reason I didn't feel depressed about my work any more. I thought maybe it was the Shana-effect, you know, after a bus ride of Shana's antics.

(Interestingly I met my parents just coming home downstairs today. Anyway.)

Then I got an answer at 10.03 pm. Sandra said she'd take over for me!

And so as a result I love her a lot. Hahahahha. (Let's bake cookies!)

No, I realized more importantly, that I'd been getting my priorities wrong. It's not quid pro quo with God; God doesn't work by sorting out my life first then I step out in faith, that isn't faith anymore.

It's do what you know is right FIRST, then trust in God and He'll sort things out.

That's why Proverbs 3:6 goes "In all your ways acknowledge Him, AND He will make your paths straight."

See, I got the order wrong. It's acknowledge God first. Then He'll sort things out.

So that's why I was so stressed out this past week. I had gotten my life priorities wrong.

Thanks for sorting me out, God!

And thanks for taking over, Sandra (: