Hitori michiyuku kono kokoro
Studio Ghibli theme songs are always nice.
Teru no Uta- Aoi Teshima
Yuuyami semaru kumo no ue
Itsumo ichiwa de tonde iru
Taka wa kitto kanashi karou
Oto mo todaeta kaze no naka
Sora wo tsukanda sono tsubasa
Yasumeru koto wa deki nakute
Kokoro wo nani ni tatoe you
Taka no you na kono kokoro
Kokoro wo nani ni tatoe you
Sora wo mau yo na kanashi sa wo
Sometimes I feel like time's just passing me by. Like everyone's out there doing stuff and I'm here doing nothing. Well, not actually nothing. Just being alone by myself doing the things I like. And the things I like to do are best done alone, like reading. Although I confess I do like doing things like skating by myself too. For now anyway.
February the 14th is coming. I am not looking forward to it. Partly because it would mean Terms are closer. Also because the day before that is X-country (darn). And lots of work would be due before that. And Peanut Hime will be leaving the next day. And Chinese New Year holidays would be over by then. And I will have to cook waffles and crepes for food sampling that day.
Sigh. My life seems busy with so many things. But at the same time, it seems so dull. I feel left behind by some of my older friends.
It's like they changed or grew up or moved on. Without me. I once thought I was one of the lucky ones who had found best friends in this world but now it seems like I've been mistaken. Somehow I've always been a shoulder to cry on, but never more than that. Find Jane when you're sad, but if you want fun, she's no good. She can shoulder your burdens, but not share your laughter.
Which is probably true. Even I find myself such a boring person. This year feels like the loneliest time I've gone through. It isn't because there aren't people around me. It's because I can't tell any of them how I feel.
Boy, this top-in-English student has a problem expressing herself. How ironic.
February the 14th, begone. Already I have wasted too much time thinking of how I much I DON'T like you.
At least I seem to be understanding Chem and Bio again, now that we've changed lecturers. Why do good lecturers come in threes? Thanks to the new Molecular Bio lecturer, I've begun to understand lectures. The new prof is organized, structured, and tells us what we need to know and what we don't. Unlike a certain previous prof who didn't seem to know what he's supposed to teach us and happily assumed that all of us are smart a**** like students from a certain JC in central Singapore.
Oh well. Every cloud has a silver lining. After 14th Feb will be 20th Feb, which is a better day. For one, it would mean no more mass PE. To know the other reason would be to understand why I've been sitting here, on CNY Eve, in front of the computer for almost 2 hours now.
Why am I sitting here? I feel stupid. And WHAT would I do on the 20th of Feb anyway? There's nothing in particular that I can do anyway. Gee. I am stupid.
Kokoro wo nani ni tatoe you
Hitori michiyuku kono kokoro
Kokoro wo nani ni tatoe you
Hitoribocchi no samishi sa wo
There's only one cure. Off to bed Janey. Off to bed.
Teru no Uta- Aoi Teshima
Yuuyami semaru kumo no ue
Itsumo ichiwa de tonde iru
Taka wa kitto kanashi karou
Oto mo todaeta kaze no naka
Sora wo tsukanda sono tsubasa
Yasumeru koto wa deki nakute
Kokoro wo nani ni tatoe you
Taka no you na kono kokoro
Kokoro wo nani ni tatoe you
Sora wo mau yo na kanashi sa wo
Sometimes I feel like time's just passing me by. Like everyone's out there doing stuff and I'm here doing nothing. Well, not actually nothing. Just being alone by myself doing the things I like. And the things I like to do are best done alone, like reading. Although I confess I do like doing things like skating by myself too. For now anyway.
February the 14th is coming. I am not looking forward to it. Partly because it would mean Terms are closer. Also because the day before that is X-country (darn). And lots of work would be due before that. And Peanut Hime will be leaving the next day. And Chinese New Year holidays would be over by then. And I will have to cook waffles and crepes for food sampling that day.
Sigh. My life seems busy with so many things. But at the same time, it seems so dull. I feel left behind by some of my older friends.
It's like they changed or grew up or moved on. Without me. I once thought I was one of the lucky ones who had found best friends in this world but now it seems like I've been mistaken. Somehow I've always been a shoulder to cry on, but never more than that. Find Jane when you're sad, but if you want fun, she's no good. She can shoulder your burdens, but not share your laughter.
Which is probably true. Even I find myself such a boring person. This year feels like the loneliest time I've gone through. It isn't because there aren't people around me. It's because I can't tell any of them how I feel.
Boy, this top-in-English student has a problem expressing herself. How ironic.
February the 14th, begone. Already I have wasted too much time thinking of how I much I DON'T like you.
At least I seem to be understanding Chem and Bio again, now that we've changed lecturers. Why do good lecturers come in threes? Thanks to the new Molecular Bio lecturer, I've begun to understand lectures. The new prof is organized, structured, and tells us what we need to know and what we don't. Unlike a certain previous prof who didn't seem to know what he's supposed to teach us and happily assumed that all of us are smart a**** like students from a certain JC in central Singapore.
Oh well. Every cloud has a silver lining. After 14th Feb will be 20th Feb, which is a better day. For one, it would mean no more mass PE. To know the other reason would be to understand why I've been sitting here, on CNY Eve, in front of the computer for almost 2 hours now.
Why am I sitting here? I feel stupid. And WHAT would I do on the 20th of Feb anyway? There's nothing in particular that I can do anyway. Gee. I am stupid.
Kokoro wo nani ni tatoe you
Hitori michiyuku kono kokoro
Kokoro wo nani ni tatoe you
Hitoribocchi no samishi sa wo
There's only one cure. Off to bed Janey. Off to bed.
posted by munchkin @ 11:22 PM
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