Went blog surfing for a little while. I regret that now. I realize I'm being left behind by everyone I used to know. Oh well. I wonder if I'll ever have such good times as I used to have in NY? Who knows. Sometimes I wish the good times didn't happen so I wouldn't know what I'm missing.

Machigai ja? Nakatta yo ne. But on the other hand they're now so precious to me I wouldn't want ot miss it for all the world. Oh well.

I'm almost done with the Lit essay. It's turning out somewhat confused and somewhat on task, so I hope by the time I'm done with it it'll be comprehendable. In any case, I'm already in big trouble with my tutor. What can I say?

Interesting how Huxley thought the world would come to a day where everyone lived in an illusion of happiness and pleasure. As the trend goes, it seems like people are happier and happier being sad and anguished (note the contradiction). Gee. Perhaps it just takes time for the whole thing to make a full cycle. After all, Huxley's Brave New World is set in 2500 plus AD (or if you will, 632 AF). Thank God I won't be alive then.

Since I'm quite sure nobody is reading this, I will be liberal and air my views as much as I like. I'm glad I'm not going on the Japan tour with the CCA. I think I'd get more depressed. Lack of time aside, there would be other reasons. Which I still don't feel like admitting too, despite my confidence in a non-existance of you. Well, Mom reminds me two years is pretty darn short so I'll be out of there in no time. Sometimes I wonder whether that's really as good as she makes it out to be.

I suppose it is. Seems like life only gets more confusing as we get older.

FMP TSR OP is stuck in my head now. Kokoro egakidesu, chizujou no michi na FRONTIER... lalala. Hashiru minamikaze ni notte aoku somaru kaze wo kitte. Oh well. It's a nice song, just that the whole season is too emo for me. They could have done so much more with the plot and the characters like the Twins and Leonard. Isn't it pretty interesting to find that Gaul adopted twins, and that the new badie is an opera-mad lunatic? I mean, there's got to be some interesting history behind it right? And Leonard finally makes an appearance after we keep hearing about some long-lost brother of Tessa's but the only significant thing he does is to kiss Kaname and then get slapped by her for it. Dots. -_-"""" What kind of characterization is that? So dumb. The only characterization worth mentioning is that of Al, the Arbalest's AI. The viewer sees a human side to Al that was incorporated into him by his inventor during his conversations with Sousuke. Still, this season leaves too much unsaid and hurries way too much to the end. The worst part was all the emo-ing by Sousuke. Couldn't stand all those bits. When Sagara Sousuke starts emo-ing the world is falling down. I mean sure, he's not a machine and he does have problems he struggles with but surely his standing in the rain does not warrant as much screen time as it got. And poor Tessa is portrayed as a spoiled brat who doesn't know how to handle her feelings. Sweet little Tessa sidelined and given time only to throw a big temper. Wraith too. She played a much bigger part in the novel, but the process of how Kaname saved her from her paralysed state and how she helped Kaname was totally cut out of the season. Argh. The bottomline is this: too much emo-ing and too little plot. I'm not watching it again, except for the fighting bits in the last episode.

The Right Word

Yeah right. The RIGHT word. More like the right FACTS.

So irritatingly b***** stupid. Oh sorry, that's bad sentence structure.

I'm about to tear my hair out. Each topic is like some sort of mini-test.

I hearby unashamedly admit that I copied answers for more than three quatres of the history section. Who in the wide world is Hummurabi? Under different circumstances I would be cracking up with laughter at his name. Julius Caesar, Darius I, Alexander the Great, Charlemange, Genghis Khan, Queen Victoria, these are familiar names but Zoser? I'm sorry, but its way way too close to Loser.

Bronze Age, Iron Age, Paleolithic age? Oh please, I don't even believe the earth is that old. Anyone who does believes in evolution. So darn stupid.

Whatever. I'm just gonna happily copy answers, at least for this section.

Huh.

And CIP today was so boring. It was basically like this: daydream, "Please don't take the dictionary away from the table", stone, "Please keep your volume down", "Thank you", day dream, day dream, day dream, "Please don't take the dictionary away from this table, thank you"... And on and on. Rinse and repeat. Oh well. I guess it was fun for a whole bunch of kids so it makes it all ok.

Sigh. Life, at least mine, has a very predictable cycle. Whenever I wish for something to happen, it will, but it will be in such a twisted and distorted manner it will not longer be recognizable or desirable. Haha. At least I had one less thing to worry about.

Last day of Term

Isn't it quick? Tomorrow's the last day of Term 2.

Can't wait for Elaine to come back :)

Of course, some people won't be enjoying their term breaks, cause UNSW in Singapore suddenly mentioned that it was closing down its only campus here and that students who wish to continue their studies in UNSW would have to go to Australia to do so. Wow, that sucks. I mean, why opt to study in Singapore UNSW if you can already afford, and more than financially so, to go to Australia? And to think some of the students chose UNSW over NUS and NTU. You'll never catch me doing that, and even more so after this incident.

Poor students. Some of them spent a lot of money to come to Singapore to study at UNSW too. I guess when conflict occurs, whether physical or psychological, innocent people suffer most. And the only thing people like me seem to be able to do is to go "Wow, that must suck."

Kronos is over, I'm class rep (yeah, yeah, thank you so much for getting into council Janice), I need a new GP rep, I need to buy GP files. And I need help for my Lit essay. "Is individuality a crucial element in the pursuit of happiness?" Well, IS it?? Help. I don't know how to answer this.

My brain is screwed. It hasn't recovered from Kronos yet. Tired... sigh. Depressed... sigh. My tummy hurts... sigh. Whine whine whine. Rolls in self-pity. Sigh.

Mr. Tan is leaving Singapore and thus AC Strings. Wonder who'll be our new conductor. One of the alumni had the intrepidity to suggest ehem ehem. Oh no. Please. Hyperventilates. I don't hate him or anything, in fact I know I owe a lot to him and am appropriately grateful, BUT. I have had enough of an exciting ensemble life and am ready to druge through normality. Please don't bring what I was relieved to leave behind back into my life. Oh please no. Ok, ok, calm down Jane. It's just what a silly alumni said. Yeah. Just his wishful thinking. BECAUSE HE WON'T BE AFFECTED BY IT!!!! Calm down, calm down, there's no way the madams would ask him. And besides, his hands are too full already. Ok. Breathe. That's it.

Sigh. On one hand I'm thankful Kronos is over, yet somehow I wish I could relive it all over again. Just those few moments would be worth all the trouble of Tuesday. Ahahaha. What AM I rambling about? Just one of those distracting, irritating, seemingly inevitable and must-be-immediately-squashed things in life. Now. Stop thinking about all that and get back to business. Yes. Back to business.

Hmm. Project Work will be doomed unless I galvanize myself to galvanize my group to galvanize our project back into action. Now will that happen? Sometime next week perhaps. Muahaha. I'd better plan a holiday workplan (note the oxymoronic noun) or June will be over before I know it.

Argh I'm so depressed. I must push the pressure off. Must not let it stay for long like the last time. Huh. Guess there's no chance of that happening this time.

Anyway, random rambling has helped relieve my mind of its mixed, messy mumblings. I hope my Lit essay will not expire before I expand on it in the aspiration to excel in Lit. Muahaha.