Kuri-suma-su Omedetou!

Merry merry Christmas~

Hatsune Miku is going round in my head. Hahahaha. And here I thought it was only for guys.

Lalalala, lala-lala, pupupupu, puu~ Miku miku mi-ku miku miku...

*Yawn*. Haven't recovered from last week yet >.< And there's Thanksgiving this thursday...

I remember a time when 2010 and turning 20 seemed so far away it couldn't ever possibly come. Yet 'tis knocking on my door.

Darn. *Yawn*

Everybody, what do you say to a BBQ on the 9th/10th of Jan? If you like the idea, tell me so I can persuade my lazy butt off my chair and do something about it.

Still, learnt something important this Christmas. About what I hope my music will bring to the people around me. And about different people too.

Merry, merry Christmas!

Been plagued by a recurring unhappy dream. Kind of like everybody's dream except my own come true.

Oh God, I don't understand, and I'm running out of patience and hope.

Actually it's only appeared once at night, but several times during the day. That's the worse bit, when you can't wake up and think, it's ok, it was just a nightmare.

It's interesting, still. Allow me to analyse the status quo. I am running to a computer to relieve my feelings publicly/privately depending on how many people read and actually take note. If this had been before the computer and internet age, would I have more or less people to tell? Ah, now that is really interesting.

Oh what am I saying? >.<

it's ok, it's just a nightmare.

it's ok!

please! oh please.

Have I ever told you?

I hate you.
Have I ever told you?
How much
I hate you.

The way
Your eyes
crinkled into slim Asian slits
in a cheerful and kind
smile
as we pass along the corridor-
I hate them.

The way
Your face
smooth and calm as a lake
after a tempest as you
sit
hard and serious at work-
I hate it.

The way
Your handwriting
neat, cultured, constrained and
more beautiful than I could ever
print
flows easily from your left hand-
I hate it.

The way
Your voice
calming, reassuring and somehow
intoxicating me into dumbness
resounds
ever in my mind long after it is gone-
I detest it.

The way
Your arms
Your laughter
Your eyes
Your deodorant
Your warmth
now long gone from me
envelope
my still paralysed senses and
Refuse to free me

So long after you are
Gone.

The next time
we pass
along the corridor,

Remind me to tell you
How much
I hate you.

Weird right? It came upon me last night when I couldn't sleep.

I hope it feels and sounds topsy-turvy, confused, in self-denial, and even slightly obsessed, because then it would have fulfilled its carthartic purposes.

Cue insane laughter. *Ahahahahahaha~

My days since returning from Korea have felt slightly surreal and crazy. Now, I wonder why.

Maybe it's the a capella performance this tuesday I'm not confident of. Maybe it's the Christmas baking I haven't started. Maybe it's the Christmas letter to Sami that I haven't sent. Maybe, just maybe, it's the hairbrained way I volunteered to play the violin for Christmas service, but still haven't really figured my bit out.

Ahahahahha! Cue more insane laughter.

Interestingly, someone just asked about Dr. Tamaki Saito! My post from 2 years back was finally COMMENTED ON! For real!!!

Lol! I only hope I can find my materials for her. I hope she won't be disappointed.

Fri-day

'All will be fine'...?

We have a 'turncoat' who abandoned us who is,what do you know, the only tenor in our a capella group.

Maybe I'm too mean, maybe he didn't mean to or want to.

Whatever. I'm counting him out of the picture. Was never very good at his part either.

The most off-putting thing about a guy is unreliability. And chauvinism.

Ahhhhhgh. I shall just remember what Daddy said and just have fun.

Sarks.

Korea was fun. But I'm much too put out to say anything besides the fact that it snowed! Yay. On Dragon Peak. Snowwwww~~~ Miss the cold already.

Bweah. I'm resigned to doing a less-than-satisfactory job already.

Oh dear God, please let 'all will be fine', cause after all, You're the one in charge right?

Alright. Let's plan dinner for Friday!

1. Quiche (Because I have to use up the short crust)
2. Riceballs (Because we have yummy seaweed from Korea)
3. (I want something that feels and sounds healthier...) Salad?? Or maybe just sushi...

Sigh. Quintet practice yesterday, quintet practice today, quintet practice tomorrow, quintet practice day after tomorrow, and

Audition on Friday.

Bweah.