Seeing in black and white

My days are getting waaaay too long.

JS tutorial was today? Sitting in front of the panel of year 3 judges was today? Omgosh, I thought it was yesterday.

Today is... Tuesday right? Great, means its Wednesday tomorrow.

Sigh. But, I can't complain about practice today, it's something I really enjoy.

I need a white dressy-costumy-dress for March 14. Mommy says she'll talk to Aunty Linda for some ideas and make me something :)

Cosplay event. My quartet will be playing. Come one, come all!~ >.<

Tomorrow is Wednesday.

Oh gosh. Hate the thought. My essay is due tomorrow. Somehow a 500 word essay is harder to write than a 2000 word one. Even worse are 1500 word essays. Neither here nor there.

I hate the feeling of being helpless. Can't do anything; can't not do anything. Something's got to give: me, or him.

Whatever happens, God's got is all covered God, has got it all covered.

Everything that I have to live without: both the good and the bad.

Mini, the Thai girl in my comparative pol sc tute, just reminded me today: in Singapore, we've got everything we could want. Maybe that's why politics doesn't matter so much to us, we're not fighting for our lives and our rights.

Freedom of speech? What's that in material terms? Why would I fight for something I already have?

Prawny was super cute today, talking about our faith in class today. How often do you get a chance to talk about your faith in class? Even if it is used (sometimes incorrectly) as part of a political discussion. Prof Ferrara was all "you know too much about this stuff. You sound very suspicious to me..." Lol. Well done, Shawn.

Haish. JS tute huh. I guess, it could have been worse. And besides, it was good after all, even one of the criticisms that the panel of judges gave to us was applicable to the judges' project too, so I guess you could say it was fruitful all round.

I still feel very... insecure and... wishy-washy-ish about this though. Omgosh, I'm so not a pop culture person. Why am I doing this?!?!?

Haish. Tomorrow is Wednesday, huh.

I'll put his picture down and maybe get some sleep tonight.

Or rather, some work done tonight.

*karaoke mood*

The only one whose got enough of me to break my heart. The song in the car I keep singing don't know why I do~

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you, like I never loved no one before you~

:P

FDP week 6

Sitting in R Wong's lecture again, feeling too relaxed to really listen, and too happy to skip class. One essay and one presentation down. Time to recharge before tomorrow's presentation (read: seeing how many holes can be picked in our project) and tutorial.

The lecture theatre is much emptier than at the start of the semester...

R Wong is showing us stuff from Thirteen Days... Guess I should dig up my copy at home and watch it for once. ^^

ROAR :O:O:O >(>(>(*

*Shawn-speak that means she agrees.

Oh here's another excuse to watch a movie: The Fog of War

Its 5.36, and it looks like lecture is over early today! ^^

Mezurashii~

This is unusual. I'm online, and besides one friend I can talk to no one else is online.

So unusual I just have to blog about it.

I know Elainey is on an airplane atm, Shooee I think is sick.

But none of my JS project groupmates are on. Not even shana, who's like on almost every hour of the waking day.

This is why sometimes why people say you can look for them anytime you need them, take it with a pinch of salt. There'll be days when they can't.

This is also why I'm not often on MSN. Seems like a major distraction from the many things people have to do.

My love is strong, but not strong enough.
I'll give you all I have, but it'll not matter much
So instead of promises, I'll just be honest
'Cause I won't always be around
And I know my love will let you down

I know, I must have let down some of the people I love best, time and again.

And only One Person can be depended on, any time, any day, anywhere.

All the Time in the World

It's like I got nothing to do but think about you
I've got all the time in the world

K. Here to update.

There was reunion dinner at clarke quay, where we saw the crazy reverse bungee thingie, and I was served foie gras for the first time, and I refused to eat it.

There was karaoke on the 12th, where, thank God, everyone got on very well despite them mostly being strangers >.> Due to some oversight of mine.

There was playing for service on the 14th when I spent 2 hours poring over the songsheets and still thought I sucked but people came to tell me I did well.

I know some people say, that opposites attract
If that's the truth then we, we belong together forever

Hmm. Then there was mengbing and peili who came over on the 14th as well and we spent the entire afternoon making hundreds of jiao zi.

There were yesterday's visitors, the Burmese students and pastors who sang the chinese songs so heartily I felt so inspired by them :) As well as the chinese nursing students who learnt how to play Uno at last.

Hmm. There was the night (Friday too) I spent watching the 2008 Europe Special of Nodame Cantabile until 3.30 in the morning. For a record four hours straight.

What else. Many other things, I suppose. Many things worth be thankful for. So that's why I'm not too upset over being ignored by someone. Again. Talk about glutton for punishment right? Haha, yup, I guess that's me. Also because I decided I wouldn't cry for him again. Surprisingly, it's holding up pretty well.

And most importantly because I'm entrusting my heart to God. We have an agreement.

Yup, that's a lot to be thankful for. ^^

If you look at my heart, you'll know from the start
That it's all I can do not to think about you

Somehow hooked on Jump5. But All I Can Do is quite a catchy song, you know? It's an ironic blog title though, because recently I've felt everything BUT all the time in the world. Lol.


You Know (an excerpt)
...
I'll risk one las ttime
To incur your ire
And make it well beyond any doubtful orange
Or figment of imagination
Or illusory mirage
Or distasteful nightmare
Or April Fool's joke

Because
I really love you,
(Now) you know.

Ode to a PS tutor

Here's a tribute to Farah Cheah, my ps tutor for last semester's PS1101E.

Her secret patented method for getting a hold of journal articles LEGALLY mind you, just much more easily than using the search engines provided,

Works.

Thank you Farah!

There's a lot more I'd like to say, only it'd sound like stuff I've already said before. So I guess I'm keeping it in this time.