This world is filled with idiots

I swear, if there's one sort of person I hate, its a gossiper. Why? Because they assume, and make asses out of themselves. They don't bother to find out the truth, just gossip away about others behind their backs. Neither do they bother to find out the truth. Why? Because they like it that way. Otherwise how can they carry out their most important purpose on earth? Gossip is basically a distortion of the truth, so how can they afford to find out the truth? In this case I have a feeling I know what fueled it this time round: those jealous idiots from certain schools I shall not mention. Oh I heard it all right: they were jealous we got better results than them. Said we didn't deserve it. They might not admit it now; cover it up with "Oh no, we were really concerned" and "You really suck" and what ever lousy excuses they have, but its true alright. I'm human too, so I know. And if they're so concerned why didn't tell some higher authority in the school? We would have sorted everything out. But of course, that's not what they want. Oh no. Haha. Well, we do need goats to differentiate sheep from.

Practice was ok today. I think Mr Sze looks really "strange" with glasses. Really really "strange". Since this is a public blog, I shall not be too explicit in what I mean. And the band girls are all nuts. Its so obvious they're soooo infatuated by said "strange" looking person. Hahaha. They were all so eager to please. And they were going red. It was so weird to see *ahem* going red when Mr Sze was talking to her. Oh man, we have a whole new lot of BLUSH. *Why do some ppl keep signing in and out of MSN? I think its really irritating.* Ah, the joys of youth. Oh man! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA.......................... *ow, my jaws hurt*........................ Ah, its things like these which really light up my life.

I kept screwing up during the first Allegro of Magic Flute, cause I wasn't used to the speed. Missed all the previous practices when they worked on Magic Flute. Argh. Better memorise it soon. I shall stop listening to the recording. Its so fast its confusing me. But its sooo nice... especially the woodwind solos (which are like everywhere) and the places where the trumpets come in.

Mr Sze said he invited TCHS string ensemble to come down to our practice. I nearly passed out. First I play during O Level class performance and nearly die, now I have to humiliate myself in front of him *I didn't exactly work very hard on "Magic Flute" recently so...* during ensemble time??? I accidentally reacted too strongly to this terrifying piece of news and I'm afraid somebody noticed. Uh oh. Nevermind. He didn't say anything, so hopefully he didn't notice. Its not that I like him or anything. I DON'T! SO QUIT TALKING ABOUT IT TIANYI! Its just that I really really find it funny when people actually suggest that. Not now. I find it damn irritating. But I look at their "Aha!" faces, and I just can't help it! Gosh! What an idea! Sheesh! All I do is embarrass myself anyway, so what's with all this crap??? Argh! Anyway they didn't come *trying to check with them whether Sze really asked them, but he's not replying. Stupid* so whew!

And Tianyi, you wil not like me to say this, but are you sure you're not in love with him yourself? Everytime the subject is brought up, its you who brings it up. I never even talk about him. Sheesh. You do. And you talk to him online too. I don't. And I do think you would make a good match with him. Except that you're a little too tall.

Sigh. Got to get back to writing my newspaper. Its due tomorrow. And I haven't done anything. I doubt Jasmine or Shoo has, they've been busy studying for history. At least Shoo has. Argh. C Lit is also due tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!

nessum dorma, nessun dorma.

Nessun Dorma

Just got this lovely saying from Shiru. Yup, school has reopened and nessun dorma. Let's see. What work do I have?

1) The newspaper thing. I dont' know how many they want us to do, but I aim to write two editorials and two reports. Grrreat.
2) CME SAIL. Sheesh. As though we're not busy enough. Now CME has project work too???
3) Chinese Literature Project Work. Oh man, I totally forgot about it. Zhang Li and Wang Chen say they will find the info, then Mer, Enqi and I are supposed to get the powerpoint done. Crap.
4) Chinese books, as well as book review (which I SO do not intend to do).

Plus, of course, all the usual revision for tests etc. Not forgetting all the lovely pieces I have to practice.

Sigh. Fine, I shall not try to express myself in Jap anymore. I've gotten too rusty.

The Blueberry Song

Hmm, which Blueberry Song shall I sing? Do I have a choice?

I thank God for this day, for the sun in the sky, for the friends that I have, for the times that we have shared. For His love that's all around, 'cause He listens to our prayers, that's why I say thanks everyday.
Because a thankful heart is a happy heart, I'm glad for what I have, that's an easy way to start!
For His love that's all around, 'cause He listens to our prayers, that's why I say thanks everyday!

*Taken from a VeggieTales Production, with minor adaptations. * Well actually its not the Blueberry song, but Madam Blueberry learnt to sing it anyway. Thanking God for a day which didn't end quite well isn't exactly easy. But I guess its better than spending the rest of the day mooching around unhappily. Way better.

What a lovely practise we had today. I just wish those poor misinformed dears from the band could have joined us. It would have enlightened them. I'm glad I know the whole situation though, because when you see it all, and understand why it happened, and why people do what they do, then you really appreciate it. Respecting someone isn't about not knowing or ignoring their not-so-nice sides I guess, but acknowledging them and still respect that person. Guess its not easy. I wish every practise could be nice and successful, but that just isn't the way things are run on earth. And I guess sometimes a good yelling at helps. While at other times it doesn't. For some people it helps, while for others it doesn't. Actually, whether or not something helps or turns out good really depends on the way one reacts to it. I'm just glad I had that sectional to sort things out in my section. And I'm really thankful I didn't get singled out today. Now that's one for the record. Anyway, things don't always work out I guess. Sometimes we need to be reminded. But really, today was an all time low. Nevermind. Tomorrow will be a new day.

Enough of that. I have to write editorials and reports for the newspaper assignment we have. The newspaper is set "somewhere in Norway". Wow. What a delightful place to set it int. Of all the places to set it in, it has to be somewhere I don't know anything about. Had literature test paper returned today. As I looked at my marks, I didn't know whether to be satisfied or upset. It was a miserable 16 out of 25... phone's ringing. Hang on.

Oooh. That was LiBing. She just told me that today is Mr Sze's birthday. OH CRAP. OH NO!!!!!!!!! OH NO OH NO OH NO. Why did she have to go and tell me that? Oh CRAP! Now I feel sooooooo guilty. She was at RI for some stuff I think, not sure where exactly she was, but she said she saw him having a good time with the RI guys. OH GREAT. OF ALL THE DAYS TO TOTALLY SCREW EVERYTHING UP. OF ALL THE DAYS TO MAKE HIM SOOOOOOOO MAD. OF ALL THE DAYS!!!!!!

WHY???????????????????? WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?????????

I swear, life is so unfair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIBING, PLEASE SAY YOU'RE JOKING!!!!!!!!!!

Right now all I can think is "Oh s***." Yes indeed. "Oh s***".

Argh. I mean, everything had been going fine for the past few rehearsals and.... I'm just glad I'm not a cellist. I'd be totally dying right now. Eaten up by guilt. Anyway I doubt any of the cellists would react this way so... They'd better not die on us anyway.

Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh............................

*Blink blink* To heck with the literature marks. I shall talk about them if I ever get into the mood again. I don't feel like writing anymore. Time to get back to work. If I can actually concentrate. I wonder what YiBing will say...

Why does everyone sound so heartbroken?

Everyone sounds so heartbroken....sniffff....

Haha. Just kidding. Two people certainly don't make up everybody. But it just reminded me of my time. But I guess I realised that being teenager isn't about love and friends of the opposite sex. Girls have a pretty good time too. Haha. But it took me an entire year of moping around over some guy who wasn't even good looking... or tall. Oh my goodness. Why did I ever like him? Must have been mad. And a whole year too! Well, that's over. And it's part of my "don't get too close to a guy" policy. Not that I've ever had trouble with that anyway... I repel them. Muahaha.

Anyway. School has begun! Today was slack of course, but I still spent two hours sleeping. Went to see Batman Begins last night, and only slept at 12am. Then had to get up to do some English thing at 4.30am. So. The movie was good, and I'm glad I always have my mom for company. Hee... Somehow we seem to share an interest in many things. My dad didn't want to come. Strange. I thought he would have liked it. I find the movie rather philosophical at times, all that stuff about fear. But let me tell you, I have no obligations whatsoever to conquer my fear of lizards. Haha. My mom watched the other previous Batman movies and she said that the other actor had "sexier lips". What is it with lips being so large? Seeing Brat Pitt's lips makes me want to use a.... shall not describe my very morbid plans of primitive surgery. Christian Bale is handsome enough, even without the "lips". Geez. Hmm-hmm..... ^_^

A very busy July is starting. Sigh. Wish me luck.

I want my holiday...

Sigh, there goes my holiday. It's over already and I haven't done anything worth talking about or remembering. Except for CCA pract, but I missed two pract.s with the band, and one was cancelled. There were only four scheduled, so do the math.

I am so totally pissed. Jas, Shoo and I spent like the WHOLE DAY doing some literature hw that only had TEN lousy marks to it. Darn it. Would have written three whole pages less if I'd known it was so worthless. Plus my lit is elective so TEN marks doesn't make a difference. Huh. Oh whatever, I still like handing in work that I've thought through, not some piece of crap. That only applies to Chinese. Muahaha.

And speaking of Chinese, I still have yet to read 红楼梦 and am only half-way (now that is optimistic) through 石膏与我。 Why in the world plaster helps to cure some serious bone disease is beyond me. Far beyond my reach is also why the teachers think reading about some woman in hospital suffering and all her various aches and pains will help us. Does every teacher think we are free, or what? It may be just a little, but 9X Just a little = A whole lot of work.

Ahem. Excuse my whining. I hate to say this, but I do understand why they just HAVE to give us a tiny weeenieee bit of homework. Now that's just scary. Enough of this homework talk.

July's going ot be a real busy time. But I kinda look forward to that, to all those concerts. It'll give me something to work towards, to look forward to. 'Cause even though we (ok, I) get scolded like goodness-knows, I think it's really worth it. It'll be fun alright. Sometimes I wish I could stay on with my CCA longer than Sec 4. Haha. Because I probably can't get into a JC one.

Speaking of getting scolded, I hate my hands. In particular, my rusty, stiff and wooden wrist as well as my deformed short last finger. But better to have hands than none at all. My hamsters have no hands. They have paws.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??? I am soooooo lame. It must be all the homework. No body better ask me how my holiday was. Especially NOT my literature teachers. Because I have decided to permanently delete the word "holiday" from my vocabulary. Now, it will be called a "short, homework loaded, no-lessons day".

;) Let's see who finds out

So here is my personal blog at last. I'm not going to tell anyone about it, just going to let it exist. Let's see who finds it. I think it'll be an interesting experiment. I shall add a tag board in at my own leisure. Meanwhile some of the current events have already come and gone. If you have the luxury of reading my private blog (which only about 5 people do) then perhaps when I write in this one it won't seem so strange.

But anyway I looks like I have quite a bit to learn about blog formatting...so whatever. I am just going to leave it like THIS. I shall use PINK, just to make some people absolutely MORTIFIED. Hahahahaha. :P But one think I do want to add is music, so I shall have to ask elaine.

Let's see who finds out.