Dreaming of a White Christmas
Somehow this year didn't feel very much like Christmas.
Ok, maybe it did. I just didn't have enough of it :D
Bah. I don't want to be J2 so soon! It's so hopelessly old, and I don't feel old enough yet! Help help help... *is dragged off*
I realized I haven't updated in some time so here's a quick update of my holidays so far:
After terms, it was the PW Oral Presentation Rush. I realized that my teammates are last minute workers. Thankfully, they were pretty good last minute workers. Still, I wouldn't want to do it again.
Then, it was off to Mom's office everyday to rush for the Indonesian PP testing. We handmade twelve sets of the Green Bag! I told Mom she should stamp each product with a note saying "Handmade with Love" but she just laughed. Oh well.
After which was the work attachment at TTSH. It was a great experience. That's not to say the hard stuff was whitewashed. Nooo, we got to see that it IS pretty hard being a doctor. But somehow, I feel like that's what I want to be.
Then it was off to Korea. Korea was fun fun fun! Yayee. It was nice and cold, and I got to see SNOW!!! WHOOTS!! On Mt Sorak! But only for like, 5 minutes :( But it was so pretty. Sigh. Oh. And I hated the photographer tailing us. I am so not a camera hog. >.< But he was quite nice. So I can't say I totally regretted it. Plus he can take good photos, especially of my photogenic mother and brother.
When I came back it was December. Hmm. I can't exactly remember what happened to my December. It was mainly homework, working at the office, shopping, rs-ing, and I think more shopping. Oh yes, and meeting with Elaine and some of 4/14 again. ^_^ I've really missed all of them more than I thought.
But somehow even when the people you miss most are next to you, you still miss them. It's like when they went away some part of them disappeared or changed, and it's not the same anymore. And you miss them even more because you can sense that difference. Still, I had a good time with them.
As for December, there are still some things I haven't done.
1. I haven't given out three Christmas presents.
2. I haven't gotten myself a Christmas present.
3. I haven't gone out shopping with Shana. (I feel so guilty! I've been so busy though >.<)
4. I haven't done dinner with Elaine, Huannie and Shooee.
5. I haven't finished my Chem homework!!
6. I couldn't finish my Econs online work before the server crashed again. AGAIN.
Ah well. At least this year I got most of my work done early. That's an improvement :) :)
Sigh. When Christmas came around, I had a performance and caroling with the church choir, and I quite miss someone actually. Haven't been able to talk to him for sometime now. Haven't been able to pass him his present. (Nothing romantic ok? I'm just trying to do sometime nice for a friend.)
Hmmph. Even IF I met him online now, what would I say to him? There's usually this big silence between us, because his brain's only on the game (says he hates using his brain but actually he's just picky about how he uses it) and he doesn't say much anyway. It's just that recently we've had more to say. I don't know how that happened.
That does it. I am NOT into him. NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT . ARGHHH. STOP THINKING...!!
Good. I'm normal again. Sorry for the technical difficulty.
This reminds me of the ending theme of Midori. I get embarrassed by what I find myself thinking. I sometimes don't feel like myself. At such times there's this big fog around my heart. My brain's blowing and blowing but the fog comes back again and again. Fortunately I'm not the sort of person, like a certain princess, who keeps attracting the attention of boys. Otherwise I think I'd have more trouble dealing with my feelings than her.
Now, being able to say such a sentence means my brain's back in control. Goodgood.
See? I just need to think properly and I'll be alright.
Anyway. It's A levels next year. And then onto university. Noooo...! I'm not ready! Is it being too optimistic to think that by the end of the year I will be? Somehow I'm inclined to think so. Maybe it's just another method of procrastination.
Somehow I wish I was able to tell people how I really feel about situations, about things, about them. Guess I'm just not built that way.
Kimi ni aete, ureshikatta.
P.S. Oh, I just realized I'll be in bigger trouble when he goes off for his ns. No, I'll turn it my way and use it to get RID of the trouble. For good.
Ok, maybe it did. I just didn't have enough of it :D
Bah. I don't want to be J2 so soon! It's so hopelessly old, and I don't feel old enough yet! Help help help... *is dragged off*
I realized I haven't updated in some time so here's a quick update of my holidays so far:
After terms, it was the PW Oral Presentation Rush. I realized that my teammates are last minute workers. Thankfully, they were pretty good last minute workers. Still, I wouldn't want to do it again.
Then, it was off to Mom's office everyday to rush for the Indonesian PP testing. We handmade twelve sets of the Green Bag! I told Mom she should stamp each product with a note saying "Handmade with Love" but she just laughed. Oh well.
After which was the work attachment at TTSH. It was a great experience. That's not to say the hard stuff was whitewashed. Nooo, we got to see that it IS pretty hard being a doctor. But somehow, I feel like that's what I want to be.
Then it was off to Korea. Korea was fun fun fun! Yayee. It was nice and cold, and I got to see SNOW!!! WHOOTS!! On Mt Sorak! But only for like, 5 minutes :( But it was so pretty. Sigh. Oh. And I hated the photographer tailing us. I am so not a camera hog. >.< But he was quite nice. So I can't say I totally regretted it. Plus he can take good photos, especially of my photogenic mother and brother.
When I came back it was December. Hmm. I can't exactly remember what happened to my December. It was mainly homework, working at the office, shopping, rs-ing, and I think more shopping. Oh yes, and meeting with Elaine and some of 4/14 again. ^_^ I've really missed all of them more than I thought.
But somehow even when the people you miss most are next to you, you still miss them. It's like when they went away some part of them disappeared or changed, and it's not the same anymore. And you miss them even more because you can sense that difference. Still, I had a good time with them.
As for December, there are still some things I haven't done.
1. I haven't given out three Christmas presents.
2. I haven't gotten myself a Christmas present.
3. I haven't gone out shopping with Shana. (I feel so guilty! I've been so busy though >.<)
4. I haven't done dinner with Elaine, Huannie and Shooee.
5. I haven't finished my Chem homework!!
6. I couldn't finish my Econs online work before the server crashed again. AGAIN.
Ah well. At least this year I got most of my work done early. That's an improvement :) :)
Sigh. When Christmas came around, I had a performance and caroling with the church choir, and I quite miss someone actually. Haven't been able to talk to him for sometime now. Haven't been able to pass him his present. (Nothing romantic ok? I'm just trying to do sometime nice for a friend.)
Hmmph. Even IF I met him online now, what would I say to him? There's usually this big silence between us, because his brain's only on the game (says he hates using his brain but actually he's just picky about how he uses it) and he doesn't say much anyway. It's just that recently we've had more to say. I don't know how that happened.
That does it. I am NOT into him. NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT . ARGHHH. STOP THINKING...!!
Good. I'm normal again. Sorry for the technical difficulty.
This reminds me of the ending theme of Midori. I get embarrassed by what I find myself thinking. I sometimes don't feel like myself. At such times there's this big fog around my heart. My brain's blowing and blowing but the fog comes back again and again. Fortunately I'm not the sort of person, like a certain princess, who keeps attracting the attention of boys. Otherwise I think I'd have more trouble dealing with my feelings than her.
Now, being able to say such a sentence means my brain's back in control. Goodgood.
See? I just need to think properly and I'll be alright.
Anyway. It's A levels next year. And then onto university. Noooo...! I'm not ready! Is it being too optimistic to think that by the end of the year I will be? Somehow I'm inclined to think so. Maybe it's just another method of procrastination.
Somehow I wish I was able to tell people how I really feel about situations, about things, about them. Guess I'm just not built that way.
Kimi ni aete, ureshikatta.
P.S. Oh, I just realized I'll be in bigger trouble when he goes off for his ns. No, I'll turn it my way and use it to get RID of the trouble. For good.
posted by munchkin @ 7:50 PM
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