So close

Mmmmphhhhfff!~

Hee hee hee.

*holds back giggles*

It never fails. That band never fails to get me hysterical. Especially that growly lead singer. Oh man, the moment he comes on I just can't hold back any longer.

Bwahahahahahhahahaaaaaa~!

S**i, I'm sorry, I feel so disloyal, but I really can't help it....!

Thank God it's not you singing. I would really be torn between laughing and holding it in. My goodness, they're ask good as MPS at making me crack up.

Only MPS makes much more sense. MPS cracks me up by making illogical sense, PC-TUC cracks me up by making logical nonsense.

Excuse me.

*Takes liberty of rolling on the floor, laughing.*

Better turn their latest creation off. My cheeks ache.

Don't quite want to turn off King Arthur and his gay knights though. Yes, they really take the biscuit.

Confetti thrower 1: Spring!
*Confetti is thrown*

Confetti thrower 2: Summer!
*More confetti thrown*

Confetti thrower 1: Winter!
*Confetti confetti everywhere*

Confetti thrower 2: Autumn!
*Confetti looms*

King Arthur, Sir Robin, Patsy, and Sir Galahad: STOP IT!
*Confetti thrower wilts*

And out comes the manually operated rolling scenery. With Egyptian and square dancing knights to boot ;)

But I particularly like this dialogue...

Baron: Someday, my son, all this will be yours.
*Gestures offstage to imagined expanse of land*

Herbert: What, the curtains?

Yes, to stressed out muggers, like you and me Shooee, I highly recommend Monty Python's Spamalot. ^^

Anyway, it would be nicer if I could hear S**i better on his instrument. Can hardly hear him at all. I know its only suppose to support the rest of the song but still. One should be able to hear it at least a little, you know?

C'mon, be confident! ^^ You can do it!

Somehow although I screwed up my Chem paper 1 today I feel very hyped up. And happy. Must be the carthartic effect of crying my eyes out over the sad portion of School Rumble. *Elainey, spoilers alert! Skip to end of this entry if you don't want to know yet...!* Aww, Karasuma-kun, telling Tenma-chan that you love her is not a good thing to do in a hallucination. And to lose your memory after that. Man. She comes expecting a warm welcome and you give her a blank stare. And completely forget that you loved her. I was heartbroken on her behalf -.- But really, there is something about Karasuma apart from his eccentricities. For instance, the way he always seems to be watching over Tenma at certain parts of the story, without her knowing. And the way he tried to stop their relationship from progressing because he knew what was coming. Karasuma-kun, you were brave enough for one year for Tenma-chan's sake, but she was even braver for three years for your sake.

It all balances out in the end. I'm so glad the ending is a hopeful, optimistic one.

Sigh. Ah well.

On to tomorrow, cheesecake baking and anime marathon!

And to the days after.

^^

The future huh. Somebody's got his enlistment date already...

I wonder. Where will we be one year from today? A year ago, I certainly couldn't have imagined where we are right now. But it's good not to know the future. If Tenma and Karasuma had known, they mightn't have the courage to pull through. And if I had known the journey between then and now, I might not have the courage to pull through either.

But as it is, here I am, and I'm glad to be here.

FROWN

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Tomorrow is Chemistry paper 3.

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Bio is one of my best subjects. And it is already going to die le.

Chem. Oh, poor Chemistry, I liked you well. (Does a poor imitation of Horatio).

Somehow I just don't feel like studying for it. Kind of a die then die lorh feeling.

Sheeet. Somehow a certain voice in my head doesn't seem to be doing much good.

Tired, lonely, uninspired. Yes, I guess that's what's wrong with me. Thank God it's only prelims.

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I'm going to get wrinkles. What fun.

Note: Obviously this post has been utter rubbish. My apologies who actually read it through in good faith. To make up for it, there's a funny commentary video on the 1952 Olympics called The Roaring Reindeer, hosted by a Stephen Colbert. It's quite funny. To me anyway.

*gasp

Shooee read my blog!

*Sniffle. I'm so touched. Somebody reads this blog!

Ahahaha. ^^

I think I let some of the steam out during GP today.

And tomorrow is Econs. I did surprisingly well for the mock exam, despite not studying, so I hope that my little bit of effort today and yesterday will scrape me at least a B.

I feel so guilty now. Shooee, you and all my other friends do make a difference to me :)

Yes, we need a ranting session Shooee. Maybe after the prelims? I didn't know you felt that way too. Yes now I'm even more sure smart people have it worse off than average people.

Oh, and thank you for the compliment on my writing. I didn't know my explosion of dark, violent thoughts could be described as "writes well" :P

Tomorrow is the first of the three 3hr papers I will be sitting for, so I hope I won't run out of steam.

Ganbatte ne, atashi tachi!

In a temper-tantrum mode

Warning: This post exudes negative ions and should not be read 1) if one is feeling down 2) in part only. Read. Or Read not. You have been warned.

Dear myself,

I've been acting absolutely stupid in the past few days. My prelims are coming but I'm not studying, I've been sitting up online at MSN waiting for people who just don't appear, or who just don't have the time or attention to talk to me, and I've just been generally mooching about.

Bravo. Go on like this and I will be getting lots of lovely Fs for prelims. Really, that could prove to be quite fun. At last, Jane Lau the smart ass proves to all those irritating know-it-alls out there that, contrary to popular belief, she is NOT invincible or smart or any of those crappy adjectives.

Dear myself, I disgust even myself, acting so pathetically, sitting around waiting against hope.

*As an aside, it's refreshing to be so frank on my blog for once. After all, nobody but me is reading this.*

I like writing like this. I'm absolutely dripping with sarcasm and I've just realized how fun it is to do so.

You miserable pathetic loner. Just realized you haven't got a social life, haven't you? All your calls or smses are regarding school work; you're just some walking dictionary or encyclopedia. Enjoy being in the continued company of only yourself, because that's how it's going to be for quite a while more.

It's not entirely fair, of course, to say that nobody cares. For every few people who don't care, I know there is someone who does. So in the rare event that someone who cares about me is reading this, please don't freak out and call me or email me. I'm really quite ok. Really. *You could tag though.*

Ahh. Getting all that poison out of my mind and into words feels cathartic. I think I could manage a smile.

:) There.

I wonder if all the other supposedly smart people feel like this too. Like everybody around them is pleased to put them on a pedestal, and stay far far away from them. To smile upon their strengths and positive values, and to sweep their weaknesses under the carpet. To use them as landmarks, guidelines, and not give a damn about who they are as people. What they like, who they like, what they think, their individual quirks.

But of course, people like me don't have unique characters. We're just good at everything, and that's all that matters, yeah. All just super people who make life difficult for the average person.

Well, since I'm so inhuman and uninteresting and not worth knowing, I may as well take some sadistic pride in making life difficult for the 'majority'. After all, I'm too alien to know what it's like, or to care, aren't I?

More poison leaking out. It really does feel good. Like the way a good cry helps.

Ah well. I guess my problem is just feeling a tiny bit used. But that's just my problem. People have a right to enjoy themselves before school starts again, and if that's not your style, it's just too bad. *Yes, it IS just too bad, myself!*

I should really just give it up, no? But I do know what Pip in Great Expectations was thinking when he never gave up on Estella, no matter how idiotic holding on was. Nice to know my idiocy stems from a tradition that already existed during the Victorian Age.

Perhaps its the poignancy of it being one year. I can be certain at last that it's been one year because of last year's chewing gum remark. Why in the world they would want to discuss Singapore's chewing gum laws so long after its been implemented as a unique point about us is something I'll never understand. But it marks one year.

A lot of things have happened in that one year.

I swear, some people are so hard to know if I had known what I'd have to go through I wouldn't do it again -.- It's like peeling an onion with so many layers that while only halfway through peeling you thought you were already done with the skin. Until you got to the next layer.

But I'm in it already, from head to toe, so I'm not backing out now. Besides, sometimes the many layers make you appreciate what's really inside when you finally get there. Something that was wrapped in so many layers feels more and more precious and real when you get closer to it.

Oh well, myself, life isn't so bad after all, when you take the time to count your blessings.

Cheer up, old thing. Here's another smiley for you- =) Reminds me of the funny green smiley. Should have saved it. Lol. Speaking of green, there was that funny green mask too. Life is actually pretty good for me.

^^ Thanks for listening, myself. Even though it's just you again, I think it helped. Ignore the weird people out there like *ahem ahem* who are going "oh my gosh this is so weird" and spreading weird rumours about you. What they say or think doesn't matter to you, because what you say or think doesn't matter to them.

Think less, smile more. *Like a certain dear someone.* And pray.

Love,
Jane

P.S. Note to self: Start finding out more about those people whose lives look like everything is going well, and stop being too busy to care.

P.S. 2. Here's to remember that good times are real:

Photo courtesy of Shoo-ee, going-to-be pro artist ^^