Eternity

Note: The contents of this entry are completely religious in nature and may be offensive to some. You have been warned.

Was reading a particular blog on a country in Europe. I'm quite sad to see that although a large majority of them register themselves as Christians, it seems quite a substantial number don't really know what Christianity is about, or who God really is, or what the Bible is really saying. What happened here? Didn't the Europeans start out Christian first?

And I have a friend there just like one of them. No, I don't want you to be just another statistic! I want you to know the truth too. I want to show you what our religion really is about, who my God really is, what life is truly meant for.

Oh, God, please. Man, it sucks to have someone you care for very much this way.

Lord Jesus, every single person who rejects you must hurt you far, far more than I do.

When you feel tired, lonely and uninspired, lift your eyes to heaven. There, friend, is your Comforter and Strength.

The Bible calls on us to be faithful in prayer in Romans. God, give me the grace to be faithful and the perseverance to go on when it gets hard.

Sillä niin on Jumala maailmaa rakastanut, että hän antoi ainokaisen Poikansa, ettei yksikään, joka häneen uskoo, hukkuisi, vaan hänellä olisi iankaikkinen elämä. (John 3:16)

神 愛 世 人 、 甚 至 將 他 的 獨 生 子 賜 給 他 們 、 叫 一 切 信 他 的 、 不 至 滅 亡 、 反 得 永 生 。(约翰 3:16)

But I know, it's not that we first looked for God, but that he first reached out to us.

Heaven having a party just for you, my friend. Yes. That is my prayer for you today, tomorrow, and until the day God gives my heart peace and assurance.

*Words in italics taken from songs by Deb Fung, namely Eternity and Hear the Angels.

My friend, you are the apple of my eye

Something I heard from a friend troubled me a lot.

So, I went to look for the lyrics to Deb Fung's Eternity. Problem was, I couldn't remember her last name, because the only time I ever heard Deb was when she came to my school to play for us the first chapel session of last year.

Anyway, I found the lyrics.

My friend you are the apple of my eye, light in my heart.
I don't know if you know how much you mean to me
Each day I pray for you
That Jesus reaches you
For you know that I want you with me in eternity.

Elainey, you were so helpful when you told me what you did in that sms. It's comforting to be reminded that God has His own timing for all of us.

I wish you were still a kid, that you were at least still praying. But who knows. God may have already started planting seeds in your heart since then. Even if I do not reap the harvest, at least let me be part of the sowing, that the harvest might actually take place.

For I know that I want you with me in eternity.

I'm so biased. There are so many friends of mine unsaved, yet this is the first time I've cried about it.

Apple of my eye, light in my heart. No, Elainey, I don't think it's just to fill a void in my heart. It was before, many times before. If you asked me again I think I would have an answer. (But you'd probably just scold me "aunttieee ah". Lol. I am not an auntie ok. Otherwise you are too. An even bigger auntie. )

I don't know if you know how much you mean to me. I wish I could tell you. But I guess I never will.

But I know you don't know how much you mean to God. And I want to tell you. And God willing, I will.

Free: 1 Bass Pick

Whoa.

It's been a while since I last blogged.

In the meantime, Japan has come and gone...

Nice weather. Breath-taking scenery. Friendly people (in Hokkaido, that is. Don't talk to me about Tokyoites). Fresh, yummy food. Beautiful, quirky craftwork. STUDIO GHIBLI! (But more about that later.) What else. Sake. A puffed up tour guide. A funny video. Oh yes. And cute guys.

Lol.

Either they've got good genes, or they've all pretty much got a good dress sense. There I was, happily absorbed in Japan, its weather, its food (I actually ate and LIKED their tao ge! How rare is that) and then I had to come back. I HAD TO COME BACK. Sigh.

But I sort of wanted to anyway. By the last day. Because a small, triangular shaped thingie reminded me of someone. But anyway. I've learnt. Don't buy useless things like that. Because it's just a waste of money, brain space, heart space, dream space. Oh yes, Janey has come back wiser. D'argh.

About Studio Ghibli. I spent S$93 on a blue Totoro and a Jiji stuffed toy, plus two boxes of key chains. Shiawase :) My dad bought my lil bro a neko bus for S$43. We came back to Singapore and found a neko bus for S$13.

WARNING: Do not buy the local neko bus. It is absolutely disgusting. It looks more like a squashed up lizard covered in sporadic tuffs of fur. Gross. And it looks spastic too. And words fail me. And and. The local totoro as well. If it can even be called a totoro. They were so out of character and stupid that they screamed "FAKE" all over them. Fellow Studio Ghibli fans, you have been warned. Stay away from those artificial, disgraceful things.

On a lighter note, I've come to really understand what people mean by looks not being everything. I'd practically forgotten all about him until I saw that thingie and I just realized that even if he weren't half as good looking as some of those Japanese boys I'd still rather be with him. Or as close as I'll ever get anyway.

It's ok. Janey has grown wiser see. He'll never be anything but platonic friendliness so I may as well accept that. It's a good thing to have; it's probably better than what I really want.

Sometimes I still feel looks are everything. If you were perfect inside but flawed outside, nobody would bother coming closer to see how you look inside. I mean, we do that with books all the time. That's why chick lit is always so bimbo-ly designed (no offense meant to anybody). People expect that what they see is what they get.

At times like this a warning from Mr. P resounds in my head: "Don't get burned by what you wish for." Almost happened to me with regards to choosing a JC. I wonder if he still remembers me as the girl he gave that advice to. It was well taken. Well taken indeed.

Last CCA performance was on Saturday. There closes another chapter in my life. It's been a fun 6 years, especially the last two. Frustrating technically, but satisfying socially. I think my first 4 years were ruined by certain persons. I shall not go into detail, except to say that I hope I never, ever, ever meet them again in this life.

Who knows what lies ahead. I can only see more tedious studying in the near future, and am sorely tempted to evade tomorrow's session at the yawn factory. Sigh.

But as Peanut Princess says, I'll probably "guaiguai go to school".