Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone my hope is found

He is my light my strength my song

This Cornerstone this solid Ground

Firm through the fiercest drought and storm

What heights of love what depths of peace

When fears are stilled when strivings cease

My Comforter my all in all

Here in the love of Christ I stand.

In Christ alone who took on flesh

Fullness of God on helpless babe

This gift of love and righteousness

Scorned by the ones He came to save

Till on that cross that Jesus died

The wrath of God was satisfied

For every sin on Him was laid

Here in the death of Christ I live.

Sigh. Sometimes I reflect and I realise what a terrible person I am. For every sin on Him was laid; here in the death of Christ I live. Forgive me Father, I know You must be sad to see Your child behave in such a manner. I am such a contradiction.

No guilt in life no fear in death

This is the power of Christ in me.

...

Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.

Hmm. O level Chinese is tomorrow. I seriously don't think I can get an A1 for it. I already screwed up my oral, and I know my composition is going to drag me down into the depths of failure. Great. Its one of those exams when I just feel so hopeless.

Help. Help. Help.

I don't know whose brilliant idea it was to try to stuff three years' worth of Chinese characters into our heads in one week, but I bet my money's worth that the person(s) have never tried it themselves. I mean, sure, we're higher Chinese students, but that doesn't make us geniuses. If you gave our syllabus to a normal Chinese student, I think they can pretty much handle it too. Just make the speed a little slower. And besides, we're not even tested on the new words that come out in our text books anymore. The new Higher Chinese syllabus doesn't require us to learn all that stuff. I seriously don't know where this is taking us; where this new emphasis on reading and not writing or building up vocab is going to take us. From what I think, its not going to be a very bright or happy picture. But perhaps I'm just not as far sighted as those at the top. I wonder what they think they're doing. I wish they'd take time to explain to us what they're thinking, and at the same time let us tell them what we're thinking. Maybe they've not thought of it...? I know its naive of me to think so, but I really can't find another excuse.

Perhaps they're smart and we're not. That's another possible reason.

Oh well.

Back to cramming. If I ever get to work in MOE I'll finally be able to answer a lot of questions that have been haunting me for a long time.

Ah, but why worry about what they're doing? It isn't that important after all, is it?

Sigh.

As high as the heavens are above the earth

So high are Your ways to mine

Ways so perfect they never fail me

I know You are good all the time.

The Counsellor is IN

Heehee... My dear comm mate is facing a dilema... to tell or not to tell, that is the question. But actually she has already made it. Oh well, less attraction, more discretion then. Heehee.

Hmm. Chinese O lvls is coming, its next Monday. Shucks. Can't remember all those new words. I learn the first page, the second, and then I forget the first. Great. No more A1. Byebye....

Rarh. Tomorrow is the LAST Chinese lesson. Cos the school is so pro-ed they did not think to schedule one on Friday. Stupid spring cleaning. I WANT CHINESE LESSONS!~~ Thats probably the only time you'll ever hear me saying, proclaiming, and whining that.

Hmm, BSP people are in China already. Argh. Not looking forward to Shang Hai trip as much as before. Guess what we're doing first thing every morning we're there?

........

上课。

Oh gosh. Ok, I knew I'd have to sit in their lessons, but... EVERY MORNING?

Sigh. They start lessons so early too...

I look forward to the afternoons and the nights. Lala. I hope mom can complete the scarf in time for my trip... At the rate she's going... But I can't complain, can I?

Nowadays Singapore's getting cold too.

Sigh so many things to do before I go to Shang Hai. I hope I can finish them before I leave.

:( *sad*

Yuuuuuuuck. Can't stand some people. And seeing as I've managed to become good friends with people who irritated me on first impression, its saying something. Huh. So insincere, so hypocritical. That statement is not for them to make. 没资格，不能说出这种话来！！！

讨厌。大嫌いだ。

Huh. Seems like lots of things are getting on my nerves lately. I suppose I shall just read the signs of nature and be prepared.

I have one screwed up day tomorrow. But I shall cling onto the promise of a 5 day work week.

Whew, wehw, whew, wehw

Whew #1: Munchkin's HOME!!!!

Yay... Geraldine brought her home! Goodness knows how Munchkin got up to the 25th floor. Geraldine's dad found her at the 25th floor lift lobby. (For the ignorant, 25 is no magic number. I live on the 24th floor.) Seems like the Lim family has a habit of finding our lost things and preventing them from being stolen, but that's another story. Munchkin couldn't have climbed the stairs; the steps are too high, and she couldn't have taken the lift; she's waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too short (I can't believe I'm even thinking of this). So. *Shrugs* But just imagine.... A hamster in the lift. "Excuse me, could you squeak press the 25-squeak floor button for me squeak?"

Muahaha. Excuse the twistedness of a spoilt brain.

Anyway. ^_^

Whew #2: Exams are over! As of last Friday. Rarh. Music was horrible. All my harmonics didn't come out.... sob. All that came out was a series of pathetic squeaks. Why? WHY??? They were clear and ringing beautifully when I was practicing and now..... WHY??? sobsobsobsobsobsobsobsobs...... sniffsniffsniff... :'( waaaaaaaaahhhhh.... Stupid me. Stupid harmonics. Stupid me.

Whew #3: Got some of our marks back today. I'm so relieved the markers didn't think I wrote out of point for the topic "Inspiration". I had happily planned out the entire plot and was scribbling blissfully away when I realized that I HAD a topic. Crrrraaap. So. I just changed some bits of the plot and.... whew! ^_^ Its my best compo mark for this year. But I'm disappointed in my oral marks. Rather, I'm disappointed in Mr Tang. When he dismissed me with just the two words "Well done!" I thought he was going to give me full marks.... why?? In the end I only got 18, which is one mark lower than the 19 I scored last year. And that one mark I lost last year was due to an incorrect pronunciation of the word "stifled". *Darn you, stifle*.

As for the 4th Wehw, that will be at 4:00:01 pm on 31st October.

What's the difference between "whew" and "wehw"?

Come home Munchkin!!!

Munchkin ran away from home today... Actually yesterday, but I only found out this morning. Naughty girl, COME HOME!!!

The cage is so empty without you (duh you had a cage all to yourself), and Mao Mao misses you too... I know you hate him, but be nice. Coming home is about me, not him. COME HOME!!!!

I've searched the whole floor for you. And the whole of downstairs too :(

I nearly couldn't concentrate on Chinese Lit today... Is that good enough for you? If I flunk Chinese Lit it'll be because of you (actually I always fail Chinese Lit). See how important you are?

Oh Munchkin... Come home please. I've left your food out for you tonight. Don't be so naughty. Izzi was always a good boy. He never strayed far even if he ran out of his cage. I always found him in Kor's New Balance shoes. Why did you have to wander far? Now I don't even know if you're safe, or even still alive.

... Sigh. Excuse my self indulgence. Exams have gone to my head.

Come home, my little hammie. Your mother was a lot better behaved then you, though she bit me once or twice, but that was because she was pregnant. I'll leave a milk drop out for you tonight, so be sure to eat it, and STAY AWAY FROM THE STAIRS!!!

Or I'll never find you again. Just like what happened to Snowie.

Hmm. Do female hamsters have this natural and unstoppable urge to run away? Or is it just because male hamsters are more inclined to lie in one corner and sleep?

Hm, life's little mysteries.

Tomorrow's the day. I will be officially free from 3:00:01 pm onwards. Free for the weekend, that is. I still have Math (Logarithms) and Chinese (O level) to go. Yucks. Shall focus on one step at a time.

Back to the Baroque suite.

Your Grace

Darn. Exams, exams, exams.

I was feeling so tired today when I was crawling home from the bus stop. Then it hit me that I am half way done with my exams :) That's fast. To date I have triumphed over 4 (English, Chinese, Additional Math, Biology) and a half (Social Studies) subjects. Though I must admit I don't really feel like a conqueror. More like a survivor who just pulled through. Now the truth behind the greeting I always hear on the bus first thing in the morning is sinking in. "Time flies so fast, huh? It's (Wednesday) already. Argh, I can't believe it." Neither can I.

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
would care to know my name, care to feel my hurt?
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star,
would choose to light the way for my ever-wandering heart?

Not because of who I am, but because of what You've done.
Not because of what I've done, but because of who You are.

I am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow, a wave tossed in the ocean, a vapour in the wind.
Still You hear me when I'm calling, Lord You catch me when I'm falling,
And You told me who I am.
I am Yours.

Not because of who I am, but because of what You've done.
Not because of what I've done, but because of who You are.

I've been sending up fervant prayers before every paper. I don't know how that will help to improve my marks, but I do know Someone is listening. His grace is sufficient for me, and I am content with that. If I don't do well, I know it isn't exactly because I didn't study or put my heart into it (with, of course, the ever present exception of Math). But SOMEHOW I am just NOT doing well this year.

But who am I to question? I'm convinced I've done my best (or close to it).

*???*

Rarh. So confusing. So camp dates have not been changed? What's with all this miscommunication?

Shall stick with 5th to 9th then.

Shall stick with A Math, though I do admit its just as confusing.

>.<

Argh. Spent the whole of yesterday and today making 600 bookmarks with my mom. Complete with lamination and ribbons. Oh man. When I think of the time I could have spent studying... Those Pri school kiddies better not throw it away or anything or I will...

Bio's nearly done, Chem is finished (thanks to dear Mdm Tan), Chinese is tomorrow, Math is doomed, A Math is condemned, Chinese Lit is a horror, English Literature is fun and Music will be my ultimate humiliation. As for SS, it is, as they say, a half subject, though I hate to say so myself *sorry Ms Koh*.

I'm am trying to be positive for dearie Huiyan's sake, but... I am failing miserably. As I surely will for this year's EOYs. I just hope I can get top for English this year *please oh please oh please*. I missed it by one mark last year. Thankfully Mr Teo's chocolate was there to prevent me from hyperventilating. *sigh*