Hahaaaa...

Shall be careful about my comments from now on... Heh... ^_^"""""

*Cos got people like Shiru reading it!!*

Heeeeee... no offense *peace!*.

^_^"""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""

Lalala.... Oh well.

But I am sticking to the fact that the Mozart clarinet concerto in e major is very nice. ^_^

Lala!

Argh. In case you don't know how to read "Jane-speak", the above useless few sentences and stupid picture basically translate into this: Jane is feeling very sheepish. *Oh man!*

Haha. Wonderful feeling, wonderful day.

Went back to Nan Hua today, even though I didn't feel like it. It was a good thing I went after all. I got to meet Roxanne and Shana after soooo long. Its one thing to talk online, its another to go for lunch together. It was fun alright ^_^! Just like the "good" old days. With the two of them bickering away again... But I didn't really mind. 'Cause there wasn't any real hatred between them, just a sort of friendly argument that just reflects our friendship after all this while. Shana has really changed, for the better. ^_^ Indeed, it was good to see them today.

Mrs Ng is the same as always, except a little older. She's the only teacher I have left in NHPS to visit. Actually there is another. Mrs Fun, aka Mdm Moh. I don't really know what happened, but I heard she got a divorce. Oh well. Tried to look for her today. First time restrained by an (dare I say?) embarrassed Shana who didn't know what to say to her and hence didn't want me to go say hi to her. Um... -_-. Then before we could find her in the staffroom she went down to the library for the teachers' day lunch, and that was it. Couldn't go in. Anyway I have the feeling the teachers (some of them) felt that we were some kind of nuisance. Oh well...

Hanzhi claims she will go back even when she gets to JC. I think this might be my last year going back.

Oh great...

Tomorrow is Teachers' Day celebrations... I don't want to go to school!

Haiz, just go, just go. Its a slack day after all.

I don't want to go back to Nan Hua Primary. Whatever for? I've got no more teachers left to visit, except Mrs Ng. The school building is totally different. The building I spent my first two years in has been elbowed out first by Nan Hua Secondary, and now by NUS High. I spent my next 4 years in temporary buildings. Nothing's the same anymore. My primary school days only exist in my memories, which I can visit any day.

Maybe I'll go if Shana does.

End of Year exams are coming. I need to start studying.

I need to start memorizing my Chinese Literature and Biology, I need to start practicing my pieces for Music, I need to start practicing Math, Chemistry and Chinese, I need to start rereading my Literature text and Social Studies textbook. The only subject I don't need to study for is English. That is usually more of an enjoyment than a dread.

I need to start working hard on my CCA pieces. I wish I didn't have to go to Shang Hai.

There's so much I'm carrying on my shoulders. How do I put it down? All of us are carrying an extra 30kg on our shoulders. And it doesn't end on the 31st of October. No, there's still next year to go. And then JC. And then A levels. And then....

Gee, I think too much.

One at a time. No rushing please, take your turn.

Sigh!

Is life just out to make me miserable? Haiz. Everywhere I go I am reminded of just how lousy I am. Ok maybe that was an exaggeration. Not everywhere. But in that specific area. Haiz! WHY???

Now I'm feeling very restless. Shouldn't be thinking so much of it. After all, I'm just glad it ain't me. Oh well ^_^ Good luck Kristie.... Lalala... ^_^ ^_^ (Muahaha 幸灾乐祸）

Fufufufu.... Ah now, I am truly glad its not me.

Don't complain Kristie, its happened to me once.

Heeee... I am soooo mean! ^_^

Argh. I can't stand my brother's whining. Who ever said whining won't get you your way? My brother's a classic example. He's succeeded this time.

Stupid.

!!!

Wow! I finally found a recording of the Mozart clarinet concerto. Ok, I give in. It is beautiful. Really. Oh man. I understand the meaning of "ruin" now. Ok, ok, so we ruined it. Fine. Oh man. But I don't think we'll be touching it any time soon. Now is that good or bad? Hmm.

lala...

Tomorrow will see another very deaded Jane. But before that...

Hmm. Listening to the "La donna e mobile" rendition by Andrea Bocelli. I think I prefer the orchestration in the Pavarotti recording. Much richer, fuller sound. This one sounds empty. Pavarotti's voice is definately richer, Bocelli's is more... melodious? Hmm. That's the only way I can put it. The whole feel of it is definately a lot more crisp. And actually, doesn't really fit the character of the duke. The flirtatious side anyway. He sounds so much more like a gentleman. Ok, maybe the duke is supposed to be, but we all know what he's like. Oh well.

Now its "nessum dorma". I must say, Bocelli pronounces his "r"s very well. I think I prefer this rendition of "nessum dorma". Its really more beautiful than the first one I got from Shiru. (No offense) Oh yes. Much more beautiful. ^_^

Hmm. Anyway. Speaking of beauty, I saw something really gross on the bus on the way home. There was this couple hugging and kissing really REALLY loudly in the seat in front of Huanie and I. Yuck. No brains, and no consideration at all. Granted, it was funny, especially when they started their face sucking ritual, which took place several times. Huanie was trying not to laugh too loudly, while I was trying to keep the water I was drinking in my mouth. Ahahahahaaaaa... ^_^ so hilarious. But for most part it was just darn gross. Huanie said she felt polluted looking at them. I said I felt so pure and innocent looking at them. Haha... Life is all about your perspective anyway, for most part at least. ^_^ *Lol!*

Ok. Here is dead Janie's schedule (I don't know why I enjoy disclosing them, I guess its because saying it out helps):
PCCG (The only slack period of the day)
PE- Forearm test, serving test, theory test
Recess
Math- presentation
E Lit- test
Lunch
English- Debate session (Like we only have TODAY to prepare?????)
Chemistry

This is the first time in my life that I will look forward to Chemistry class. Sigh...

Haiz. 人生好悲哀。。。 I haven't said that since Sec 1. Haha.


Oh well. Learn to look at life the Pooh bear way. That can be so impossible.

^_^

I shall not worry anymore about attendance. Because obviously nothing I do will change the way things are.

On a lighter note, Elainey, I found the Lullabee lyrics!!!

Lullabee, lullabee

Honey bees in the tree

Rest your wings 'til the morning light

Lullabee, lullabee

Honey bees in the tree

Your honey is safe tonight

Just dream to the tune I am singing

Time to stop all that buzzing and stinging-ouch

Lullabee, lullabee

Honey bees in the tree

All I want is a smackerel or two...(or three)

Dont' sleep lightly, sleep very tightly

Happy slumbers to you!

^_^ So cute!

Humph.

I take it back. Someone will be missing CCA today. You know who you are. You had the whole weekend to inform me. People aren't selected for such activities last minute. Not only that, I didn't find out. Tianyi had to tell me.

I can't stand it. Some people just don't understand English or what? Maybe this is your first time, but if everyone does this for a "first time", doesn't that mean I'll have to face it 51 times?

You didn't know or you didn't care or what?

There's a difference you know.

The sad life of me.

*Haiz*

Whoopie!

ほんとに？？？？うれしです！！！ありがと、みなさん！

But actually... muahaha... its for your own good. ^_^ ^_^ ^_^. I'm so happy!

And did I mention I'm happy? In the real sense of lucky.

Although attendance is not something that affects me personally, I just feel so accomplished! And satisfied! Nobody (and I mean NOBODY) should be missing CCA. So. You know what that makes you if you miss CCA huh? I shall not explain.

But ah, my dream has come true.... ^_^

Lalalalala...

On a more sober note, I have to go study. I was just so happy I had to say something.

^_^!

Ahhhh.... ^_^

Piano exam is over! Ha. I know I can pass, its just a matter of how well. When I was standing outside the door waiting for Sherman to go in, I was trying to peek at the name on the door. Turns out his write up was pasted on the wall for all to see. Sheesh. And I was still like craning my neck to see the name on the door. Yay... he was a nice examiner too. Even though I played like crap for my scales (all but four started wrongly, ended correctly, plus I played one E minor instead of E major), played like a snail in my sightreading, and did pretty well in my aural (if I may say so myself). Lala. At the end, after all the thank yous and stuff, he surprised me by going "Bye Jane!"

......

Ok. I think I would prefer that to a frown. It was early in the morning then. Thank goodness he's obviously a morning person. And that he didn't get out of the wrong side of the bed. ^_^ So today I met a nice person! Malcolm Weale, trained in piano and trumpet. He's recorded a lot of trumpet concertos, including those by Haydn. I dare say I'm a whole lot luckier than Elaine. *Whew!* I daresay this is the nicest exam I ever took, except for the part when I played E minor instead of E major. I don't know what happened to me; I just started playing E minor. Oh man! Before I started I was like "ok, ok, E major, similar motion, legato." And... and... I played the first five notes and... I could feel my face just frozen in absolute mortification. Why do things like that always happen to me? Everyone has a panic button. But its seems that while everyone else's is covered nicely in glass and untouched, mine is already exposed and activated by a mere tingling of the nerves. Other times I just smash down on it the moment I hit running notes during CCA sightreading. Hmph. At least my aural was alright.

Math test after that. Die. I am going to be one of the worst in my class. That is so not new. Gee, I suck!

Cross country after that. Argh. At least the route seems to get shorter and shorter each year. Sec 1 was when I worried about it and checked off the days to it, route was longest and worst, came home with muscles aching. Sec 2, slightly shorter, made up mind to walk, came home just dead out. Sec 3, couldn't be bothered because of piano exam, ended in no time, feeling quite alright now.

Ahhhh... No more tests! Hallelujah! Ok, correction: No more tests to study for. I've got an unseen test next week for Literature. And rather obviously, I can't study for that.

^_^. A short break. Before the end of year cramming starts.

Full cycle huh? Here we go again.

l_l

Ooooh. Just found a lot of comments on my other blog, the English Elective one just now... hmm. I wonder. Are they just pure advertising or do they really mean it? None of the comments are really constructive, just some 花言巧语。 Huh. Nevermind. I have to continue anyway, 'cause I'll be marked for it.

Piano exam's tomorrow! Argh. I still screw all my scales up.

X-country is tomorrow as well....

Math test is tomorrow as well....

So by the end of tomorrow, you are going to see one dead Jane.

We had a lovely cooking talk today. Shall not elaborate, but now I see why most people say that all guys think about their stomach. But actually those things sounded rather inconsiderate to the third part of the alimentary canal. I mean if you eat all those things won't there be a miniature explosion?

I shall stick with convensional. What's wrong with that? Some of those things sounded so sinful. But nice too... Hmm... Well, as it is, I have no more room for extra fats. Haha. People like Elaine sure could use some though.

Chinese Lit was okay today... I guess. She said all ten poems were going to come out, but in the end only six were tested. Argh. I studied particularly hard for those four too. Spent extra time on them. And guess what? Due to time constraints (somehow this line doesn't sound new), I only manged to finish studying nine poems. And the last, neglected and unhappy and unstudied poem was tested. Life's like that huh? Can't believe it. Nearly flipped when I saw the question paper. Oh well. Now at least I can focus on my piano. To heck with Math. (Btw, I failed the last one with a fantastic score of 19. Never in my dreams... or even in my nightmares.) My piano is priority!

Don't let Ms Ng hear that one. Some of my teachers as well as my parents have been saying that my music should take a backseat now. Can't remember if Ms Ng was one of them, but I have this feeling she was.

死んでの医らね。。。

Sigh. Ok, ok. I know. (Hope I got the kanji right.) Ok fine, I have O levels next year. Haiz.

:(

CCA was cancelled today, 'cause a whole lot of us had field trips to attend. Stupid. Why do they always put all the activities in Term 3? Some more on CCA days. Huh... Please don't let us get scolded on Thursday for something that's not our fault...

Piano exam is on Friday! I was still hoping I could miss cross country, but it looks like I still have to go for it. Darn it. What a sheer waste of time. Nevermind. Elaine and I are going to take a leisurely nature stroll. What can they do anyway, make us run? Like how?

Was reading in the newspaper about more teens going for cosmetic surgery. Some of these operations are even birthday gifts from their parents. Sad case. If my mom ever told me she was willing to spend $16000 for me to undergo breast augmentation, or even $1000 to create artificial double eyelids, of all things that would hurt me most. To tell me that I'm not pretty enough, or even normal enough for my own mother to accept me, and that she has to fork out a pretty sum of money to enhance me. I pity them. To have your own parents tell you you're not whole enough for them. This kind of operation carries such a high risk too. For every time a patient goes under general anasthetic, there is a small possibility that he or she will not wake up again. A small chance maybe small, but not impossible. Fools. And staying in hospital will set one behind in terms of work. It really isn't worth it. It doesn't make you a better person, it just makes you look better. And even that isn't guaranteed. The doctors may give you all sorts of assurances, it may turn out nice at first, but there are complications. What's the point of going through such risk? If you're downright disgusting in your heart, no amount of surgery will change that.

And to Christians out there, I'd like to ask you one question: does your body belong to you? The Bible says that we are God's temple, and that His Spirit dwells in us. There are people without limbs, with deformed faces, have we any right to feel discontented with what we have?

Each to their own. I've made up my mind. Only in the even that one is badly disfigured by hot water or something, is that risk truly worth taking. After all, one can't go around with pins stuck in one's body and expect others to accept it.

Enough preaching.

I wonder how CCA on Thursday will work out. I do look forward to having the year end concert. It'll be fun. In a pure and innocent way, for your information. For your sake I hope I don't have to tell you that.

On second thoughts, perhaps it won't be so fun. I dunno. Things are so mixed up, so confused now. I don't even know where I stand! I once thought it was so, but now realise it is not. Argh.

Shall go call Tiannie. I promised to.

-_-

Poor Elaine. Everyone thinks the flower was a personal gift. Well, I'm here to proclaim on my rather obscure blog that Elaine was sabo-ed. By Tiannie. Poor Elaine... For those who still think that Elaine is sweet on Rayner, you've got another think coming. Those poor flowers were diverted to him last minute because of unforeseen circumstances. But I shall go easy on him. From NYSE to the soloist. After all, the bass concerto was... impressive, to a certain extent.

Oh well.

Hope you people understand now.

Chinese Literature test is coming... Oh no, I still have not memorised all the stuff yet. I am soooooo dead. Like dead? As in, dead. Right. Sigh.

自讨苦吃.

I will not regret it!

^_^"

Haha... My poor blog has been stagnant. Chinese High and RISE concerts are over. And to be absolutely truthful, I enjoyed the latter more. To be highly specific, the second half of the latter. Oh well. It had a weird ending though.

What I found absolutely cute was seeing Elaine get pushed by Mr White towards her "Mr Right". Haha. Just kidding. For some weird and inexplicable reason, Tiannie decided to buy flowers for a certain someone. !. !!!!. But anyway she left before we could find her *hahahahaha*. So we didn't know what to do with the flowers. So we gave it to the soloist. Actually, Elaine got sabo-ed to give it to the soloist, though I did tell Tiannie she should do it. For an obscure reason, and for an obvious reason. (Speaking of solo, the bass concerto was... interesting. Really. Really interesting. As to athestically appealing... that would be something else. Dai hen ne...) Poor Elaine.

And poor me.

What I found absolutely embarrassing was... Ok, I found it embarrassing, but other girls wouldn't. My only excuse is that I'm not use to this.... Argh. I nearly wanted to borrow Elaine's bow for some protection, but I'm glad I didn't, 'cause anyway I didn't need it. Evil Tiannie and Elaine were laughing at me turning red.

Though the above. embarrassment isn't exactly for the same reason as mine.

*Baka.*

Oh well.

The trip to the NEWater plant was informative enough, but it was just moving too fast. So at the end, I don't really recall much. Oh well.

Chinese Literature 统测 is next Thursday. Wish me luck!

Dead dead dead.

Ahahaha... I am so dead.

Lalalala.... dead dead dead.

CCA's been cancelled. So take note, vln 2s!

I still have to call you all later.

Tianyi, please come online at about 10 pm +/-. Then you'll get it.

And if you're wondering how long this took, it took less than 2 minutes.

Tuition tuition tuition.

Have to go for it. But speaking of which, I wonder whether I should help out with English...

Nah. No time.