ever ever after

Storybook endings, fairytales coming true.

Shana has been writing her latest story. It kind of inspires me to continue with what I've been doing. Seeing how I'll be going to FASS, guess it's the perfect time to enjoy my reading and writing again.

Goodbye Bio, goodbye Chem. It was a fun last two years with you all. Fare you well. At least for now.

I'm kind of excited, but kind of scared too >.< Nice to be young eh? I don't know.

I wonder where Sami has applied to. I miss him. Especially now he's working. When I'm awake, he's asleep. When he wakes up, I'm at work. When I finish work, he's working. When he finishes working, I'm sleeping.

Sigh. Should I drop him an email? But he probably wouldn't reply. Then I'd wriggle with uncertainty. Ah forget it.

Eh?? Somehow everytime I complain about this, I find him online almost immediately. Hmm. Annndddduh, I can't help smiling again. As usual.

Which is nice because I found myself so dead today at work. Think it's PMS. First Jiaying and Angeline and Ameerah poked my poor womb so hard it hurt all the way home till I got a heated blanket over it. Gonna scold them tomorrow.

And and. They did this stupid Chinese paper today. And I felt so stupid. Because for SOME reason I just couldn't remember all my fan yi ci and liang ci and even HOW to write simple words like cake and stationery!

Oh my gosh I'm so stupid. And I even got mixed up with blue and basket! Stupid Stupid STUPID ME!!! And of course Wei Ren got to know about it. I think I caused him a lot of trouble today, because I taught the kids the wrong words.

Ah crrap. And Wei Ren the ex-Chinese High guy OF COURSE had no problems with his Chinese while this poor failure of an ex-NYGH girl just couldn't measure up. And to think I took CHINESE LITERATURE too. And DID NOT fail.

Wow.

ever ever after. If you keep falling for the same guy, is that what love is? Sami Kasperi Lahtinen. Even his name sounds like it comes from a fantasy.

about turn

Shana and I are both glad that we'll be going to school together again this August. Hope I'm in the same tutorial group as her.

I'm pretty relieved to have finally gotten my results. A little disappointed about medicine, but mainly relieved. It's like setting my mind in focus after a long deluge. Like finally going after being constipated for a long time :D For want of a more appropriate example.

Ahhh. Nick, I get to be a bum! What about you?

Now the hard bit is telling everyone I didn't get it. Sucks man. I hate to have to deal with their reactions.

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So that was when I checked the online results two days ago.

Got my letter from NUS today, from FASS.

SingPost sucks man. They folded my freshman guide. Sucky postman. They always fold our mags, like Nat Geo. Now all my letters and stuff inside are folded. What the hey. Crap service.

So relief is one thing. I feel disappointed. And unreasonably lonely today.

I miss Sami. I miss the short colleague. I miss Elaine. I miss Shooee.

I'm looking forward to meeting Shana and Jamie tomorrow for dinner. It should be a cheering meal.

I am determined NOT to appeal. Because I agreed with God that I shall not force my way in. Although, I've spent so long thinking that it's what I really want to do, it seems a little difficult to change focus now. And I would have liked a chance to try it.

I only hope Nicholas gets in. I shall be doubly disappointed if he doesn't. Somehow if he gets in, it will seem alright in the end.

Go, Nick. Please give me good news.

I shall stew in my own juice for a few days. By next Friday, I shall tell everyone who helped me like Mdm Tham and Jonathan and everyone else who cared, the news.

God help me. I feel like such a let down.