Karenai Hana

Friday, June 19, 2009

To make a wretch His treasure

Haven't blogged for a long time, but last night I saw a few things that made me feel I just have to.

We've been getting the slower primary 2 tuition kids down for extra tuition over the past few weeks, but last night there was a p1 kid too. I shall refer to him as SE.

SE: (picks up Weiren's hand)
Weiren: Yes SE? You want to borrow my hand?

We were doing Math last night see, and one person only has 10 fingers altogether. So how does a 7 year old add 8 to 8? Well, here's how.

SE: (nod nod. Picks up other hand as well. Shapes both of Weiren's hands into 4 fingers up. Then puts his own hands into 4 each as well.)

By this time all the p2 and the one p3 were looking. Preparations complete at last, SE begins to count off all the fingers available to him before coming to his conclusion.

SE: 16. (Proceeds to write answer, oblivious that his two teachers are rocking silently with laughter.)

SE must have found that borrowing Teacher Weiren's hands was Still too troublesome, so after that he took off his slippers, put his two feet up on the chair in the way only little children can, and proceeded to use his toes.

Who says he can only count up to 10???? Bwahahaha. SO CUTE!!! XD

Hai. I'm going to miss this life. Not that I regret having a whole month off to enjoy myself (whoots!) but still, though it was only six months it's been as eventful as a whole year in JC.

As Elaine pointed out to me, I started out just tolerating the job, but now I love it.

Yesterday was quite an eventful day, all in all. It was my supervisor's birthday, so I brought flowers, Terence bought a cake, and Weiren played on his guitar ^^ Which he took very seriously >.> But then he's always taking things very seriously. I suppose when I was a green musician I took things very seriously too.

Then I visited two of the students' home with another volunteer and my supervisor. But their mother wasn't in. So we stood outside their house waiting and waiting and ringing the doorbell and calling the home phone but nobody answered. When the two girls finally came to the door, they said it was because daddy told them not to answer the door or phone if mommy wasn't in. -.-

ke ren lai le, mama bu zai jia. So we ignore the ke ren until they go away.

I heard their financial situation wasn't very good, but their home is quite clean, neat and well furnished. I mean, they have a large TV and two huge speakers. Those were probably from better times.

Oh yes, the day before Weiren and I visited another home of two brothers. We were supposed to talk to their grandmother... but she spoke only Hokkien. (Uh oh.)

Weiren only managed to tell her we were the boys' teachers. I just managed to smile. Ahahahha.... And I'm supposed to be the Hokkien one. Oops. But I can only manage to understand Hakka. Don't ask me anything else >.<

Well, that's it for my post today. Except that I'm being very lazy about driving lessons >.< Somehow it's not as fun as before. Maybe because I've found out how terrible Singapore drivers are.

Lol.




P.S. Oh yes, I went back to ACJC with Yok Teng the other day too. Mr Keith Prince is not there anymore!!!! No.... >.< Waaah. He's at River Valley High now. WHY??? MR PRINCE! Anyway, got to meet Mr Woolhead (yay! ^^) and Mdm Tham! And Yokie and I had a good long talk with Mdm Tham. Sigh. They're one of the reasons why I miss AC so much. And I told Mr Woolhead that I'm going to NUS FASS. Hahaha. I received one of the most encouraging responses I have ever had in answer to my FASS future.

Sunday, June 07, 2009

Sunny days and Starry nights

So. I must turn in my writeup for last Monday by tonight.

Problem is, I feel so awkward writing it!

Like, kind of don't know how to start, don't know how to present it, what tone to use...

Kind of embarrassed by my own childishness.

Argh. What's my problem? I never felt that way before. Why can't I trust my own style anymore?

So how to start this.

"It was a blazing day in June, sunny but blessed with pockets of wind. The perfect day for kite making and kite flying."

Hmm. Not so bad. How about:

"25 children defied the temptation to sleep in late on the first day of June; we took them to a kite making workshop part of Kite Festival Singapore."

No no, not so good.

Ah- Weiren has submitted his le. Oh crap >.< Let me see yours...! (Why does he always have to one-up me??)

While we wait for him to send...

Sami is starting his NS in 36 days...

Where did my more than 300 days go? :(

And yet, I don't know what to say to him anymore. Anyway, Maybe it won't be that different anyway. I don't meet him that often anyway.

Sami, Sami... I hate saying goodbye, so I shaln't. I refuse.

Ah well. Not as if you'd feel it anyway. Whatever.

Weiren hurry up. I want your freaking report.

Sniff. I DON'T WANT TIME TO PASS! Got no xin qing to write already. Stupid me.

Let's use the first opening. (How can that vegetarian write so easily in such cold blood??? Waaah.) He's not replying me. Stupid stupid stupid. So much for being reliable. Puuuh. DON'T need your help!

Sunny days, starry nights, lazy afternoons. Suddenly, right before your eyes, the summer fades away. Everything is different, everything changed. I'm change-resistant. Which is a bad quality in this world.

I need to stop listening to sappy songs. Hey, minna, genkikai??? >.<

Ok. I'll be getting it soon. He's not at home. Yuan wang ni le, bao qian. (His smses are full of smileys. Did something happen today to make him so super hyped? >.>)

Saa koishiyo! Deai wa itsumo me no mae ni afurete iru no!

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

there's no need to complicate

I just realized my heart and head are very disconnected and very confused.

I am tempted to hereby declare I am not in love with anyone because I just can't figure myself out. But I will not, for various reasons.

I used to think girls who couldn't figure it out were stupid.

So what the hey. I'm stupid.

Janey's heart belongs to God and to herself.

Period.