Bleah.

Tomorrow is the first day of EOYs. English. Should be a breeze.

Didn't go to school today, decided to stay home and revise my work. If you, the reader, have a problem with that, please don't make your problem mine. I spent my day fruitfully and revised 2 chapters of Bio, 1 chapter of Social Studies, and 2 topics of A Math. If I had gone to school I would have revised zilch. So Jasmine Foo keep your thoughts to yourself, or you will open the floodgates of Jane's very quick and hot temper. And if you're so pissed, maybe you should try it yourself. If not, just shut up. I don't care if you're having family problems etc, don't come to school and take it out on us. Be objective, not emotional for goodness sake. That's all I shall say about the matter. I have to keep my spirits up for tomorrow's test.

Tianyi just told me another incident where we, the NYSE comm, have been bypassed. Gee, don't they know that there are just THAT many coronary bypasses they can make before the heart fails? If you think we're useless, say so, I'll go so far as to resign for you. You won't have to fire me. I'm sure you can handle it, after all there're only five of us. Not too much to do. Especially since we never knew that much.

Parents are pissifying too. I think they've forgotten the difference between listen, hear, and counsel. Like hello? You can hear me, but are you listening? Possibly not. I don't want your 101 advices, I want your attention, your love. Not your multiple solutions to one problem. Perhaps you've forgotten how it feels like to be 15. If I need your solutions I'll ask for it. Otherwise I'll just solve it myself. Sheesh.

Hmm. Still got lots to study for. Lets see how the odds look like:
English: Did you say it was a test? Sure doesn't feel like it
Chinese: 2 hours of hard and fast thinking and writing. Ok...
A Math: 1 hour of writing and giving up, then 1 hour 3o minutes of boredom. *Stress. The smarty pants PRCs will be writing and solving solutions like crazy. And I'll be there just staring stupidly at the paper.)
Social Studies: 1 hour 30 minutes of scribbling pure crap and then rereading my answers and not knowing what in the world I am saying.
Biology: Get ready that ruler to draw extra lines in the answer space. ^_^
Chemistry: Mole concepts etc. Yay ^_^
Math Paper 2: Ditto the A Math, except possibly more time spent writing and cancelling answers.
English Lit: Annotate and scribble. I hope the examiner will be able to read my handwriting.
Music Paper 2: Die. I am totally and absolutely unmusical. I am not going to have enough time...
Math Paper 1: Funny why they mixed up the papers so. Ditto the Math Paper 2.
Chinese Lit: I will be so furious with myself if they retain me just because I fail this one. Because I know I will.
Music Paper 1: I think I can still reach the shore in time.
Music Paper 3: Drown, and die a horrible death.

Great. Lovely prospects.

Ooooooiiiiii.....:'(

Haiz. Bet he hasn't seen my email yet, its probably got a thick layer of dust on it now. *Writes his name through the dust*. Or maybe he did. And maybe he got pissed off with it and that's why she wants to see me tomorrow.... uh oh... I think too much. Just go and see her. If I do get scolded I won't be the first. Anyway I need to consult her about something too :). *Tries very hard to look positive*.

Chinese Lit test tomorrow. Diediediediediediediediediediediedidiedie. Groan. I should just give up and change to History or something. At least that will be in ENGLISH so for once I will be able to answer in a comprehensive manner. Sigh. But I really don't want to give it up. Its really not cause I don't want to study it, its because I either
1) Can't understand the question
2) Don't know how to express myself
3) Don't know how to use the information I have taken such pains to stuff into my mind.
In other words, I just CAN'T do the paper, except for the fan yi. Which is like, only 20 marks.

...

*Wails*. Excuse me *Blows nose*. Maybe I really should change. For the sake of my O Levels. Sigh.

Music exam coming, as are all the other subject exams. Polish Dance is fun to play! But its so kiddy easy I sometimes feel... embarrassed. Nevermind. Mr Seow says its Grade 7 standard so it should be ok. ^_^ Better than the Clara Schumann. That will have to be filed for the moment. I am so not prepared for my exams. I really wish I could just forget about Math, forget about Chem, forget about Bio, forget Lit, Chinese, C Lit, SS (oh btw I flunked another Timed Trial. How encouraged I am), forget everything and just learn my music wholeheartedly. Then I can take up vocal lessons, harp lessons. Harp because harpists don't use their fourth finger, so maybe I'll be freed from the Curse of the Deformed Little Finger. Hmm. Maybe flute as well. Maybe not. I don't think my fingers are long enough. Ahem. Excuse a fool's daydreaming. 像我这样没有才华的人一定要死读书。。。

Hmmmmph. Que sera sera.

...?? *smiles and perks ears*

So. We've covered the instruments of the orchestra in music class. I think I can finally differentiate between an oboe and a clarinet ^_^. Listening to the Albinoni Oboe Concerto in D Minor, Allegro e non presto. It brings back fond memories, of people like Ying Hong and Tovya, of training at breakneck speed under Warah (Gosh, the recording is SO SLOW!!!! We were like absolutely CHARGING!!!) Haha. I remember we all "loved" that and even wanted to play it for the 2004 June concert. Oh wells. Thankfully I can't really remember being scolded by Mingtse for this one, its mainly Warah. Ah well. Fond memories alright, especially of someone absolutely red by the time the first movement was over ^_^. Do all oboists go red? ^_^ Perhaps they do, but it doesn't really show nowadays. Sigh... It's a beautiful piece to me.

Adagio. Its really surprising how a piece can bring back so many memories. I won't forget the Oboe Concerto, not for a long time.

....?? *frowns*

What to say about the bbq? I dunno. Those who've known me longer will know I don't really care to put fancy things down my alimentary canal. And while Tiannie and Elaine were running around doing things I was just being useless in a corner...

Well, it was fun seeing my darling Li Bing again ^_^ (she's camera shy now... haha. Or she's just being stupid) and singing lullabee to Marissa, as well as accompanying my fairest queen around and humming her famous aria... haha. And of course, there was the chocolate cake. *!!!!! ^_^*........ Its a good thing I can't get my hands on food like that everyday. Goodness only knows what'll happen to me. Haha.

Oh well. I hope the RI people don't get stomach ache. Somehow I have this dire feeling that they will, despite the many times I prayed, "Please don't let anyone get food poisoning" when I was busy pulverising the beef with a hammer. Oh well.

Hmm. Violin masterclass is next Tuesday. Good luck Kristie! Tiannie you don't need luck. Really. You're not even the soloist, so calm down! ^_^

As for the soloist in question, gee, stand up will you?? Never knew guys were so... afflicted by emotions too. Wake up! Don't be stupid! *rahrrrr!*

??

? Was reading the Tales of Hoffmann, but came up with 2 very different endings. Two very different and contrasting endings. I've been trying to find you online but for some reason, just cannot. Shiru!!!! *Confused look* There was also this weird website talking about the different versions of the opera *something about opera in 18-dunnowat and some other weird reproduction in dunnowat year*.

Sigh. At least I've got Shiru. ^_^ Lalalala.... If I get hooked its your doing! ^_^

Life is a road and I want to keep going?

I was just reminded by Gloria that our batch is going to miss performing the opera.

I tell you this is the only occasion when I truly despise my own school. Maybe I'm being selfish, but who'd want to miss out on such a great experience? I'll never get another chance! Simply because I know very well I won't get accepted into a good JC SE, and even if I do, what are the chances they'll hold an opera?

No. I am not going to cry. >_< I've already done so twice. Its NOT happening again. *Deeeeep breath*

This is the biggest regret of my Sec 3 life. I didn't even regret doing poorly for my Math exams so much.

I really don't think I'll be going for the opera production. Not unless someone can provide me with a fast escape route to the toilet *Too late.* To all you people out there (I think you know who I mean) who are going to protest against my statement... Its just too painful. Not going. And that's that. But IF I do go (take note of emphasis), whoever sits around me is going to have to suffer from a lot of noise pollution.

Sigh... I cry too easily. Stupid me.

:(

Haiyoh.... everything's so screwed now.

First this person says this, then that person says that, then another person comes in with their two cent's worth (a rather sarcastic two cent's I must add), then this, then that, then THAT is wrong, then.... then....

Oh man THIS SUCKS.

RARRRRR!

:(... Argh, I really don't know what they're thinking. I know some is for good, and but one is definately NOT in the spirit of kindness and goodwill.

...

Who knows? Maybe its just because I dislike her from the very beginning.

I know what Elaine will say. I'm trying, but who knows whether I'll be able to smile nicely when that sarcasm rears its ugly head again.

Rar! >_< What can I say?

This sucks!